- 8 years ago
- Wedding: August 2010
I’m just having one of those days where all you want to do is curl up with a book or a movie and ignore the outside world. And of course, it’s also one of those days where I have things going on all day that require me to be socialable. And I don’t want to be. I want to sit, have a good cry, some chocolate and maybe a glass of wine. And not talk to anyone. I suppose it doesn’t help that it’s been cold and gray all week.
And when I told FH this (in not quite so many words – mainly that I don’t want to do the 2 things left scheduled and just want to stay home), he called me “Lame.” And I know he didn’t mean it in a nasty way, he’s just not a girl and didn’t know to ask “why? What’s up?” and I suck at talking about emotional things.
On top of all that, we have some major wedding stuff to figure out this weekend (stuff that requires me to have a grip on my emotions so I don’t start crying at the drop of a hat), and I’ve been totally stressing about it. I just don’t want to deal with the tough parts of wedding planning. At this stage, I don’t want a wedding at all – I just want to go to city hall and call it good. Today, my viewpoint is that the marriages that end in divorce early is due not to finances or not being ready, it’s from all the stress of wedding planning and the arguments over stupid things that aren’t really important, but stay with you and bubble over when things get bad.
I guess, for today, I’ve just had too much.
Here’s hoping for a better day (and some sunshine) tomorrow.