- 7 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
I’m not even excited about wedding planning, bees. I’m actually glad that our date is almost two years out, because I’m really dreading this entire process.
I was in tears today about it. Fiance was very sweet, talking to me and assuring me that we will have the wedding we want, regardless of what other people suggest or insist upon.
But I’m still stressed. My biggest concerns come from the date and the bridal party.
No one in my family likes the idea of a Sunday wedding. i have SO many complaints about how people will have to take off work that Monday if they want to drink at my wedding because no one wants to go to work with a hangover, or, if they’re traveling a ways to get there, they don’t want to have to travel late that night and then get up for work the next day.
And I didn’t even want bridesmaids, but my sisters will be crushed if I don’t have them in the bridal party, and my mom has already insisted multiple times that I have them.
Then there’s FBFW (Fiance’s Best Friend’s Wife), who I’ve posted about elsewhere, who is already being a total nightmare. She tried to guilt trip me into having her as a bridesmaid because she wasn’t in the bridal party for either of her siblings’ weddings. And she’ll say to me, “It’s your wedding, do what you want,” but then turns around and insists I use her florist (she got married two years ago and had a hideous 80s-esque cascading bouquet) her makeup artist (she looked like a corpse on her wedding day) and her tiara for my “something borrowed” (nothing about me screams “tiara,” and I detest the idea anyway).
All this makes me just want to jet to a beach somewhere and get married in my bare feet next to beautiful water and blue skies. Fiance sympathizes, but we both know that our families would be crushed if they couldn’t be there for the wedding. And we do want them there, we do! I just hate that I have all this stress already and the planning hasn’t even started yet.
I know Fiance is right, and it’s our wedding, no one else’s, but I still get stressed out from thinking about all this. I should be enjoying my engagement, and I’m not. 🙁