Post # 1
DH and I have have been to hell and back this year and it seems it’s not over yet. He is doing very well since his brain injury 10 months ago and we decided to do IVF. Ive been checked by my RE and they discovered a uterine septum that had to be removed. I thought we were going to schedule his testicular sperm extraction at his urologist last week. Instead, we found out he has low testosterone and needs to be on Clomid fir 3 months before the TESE. That means the earlier I could start an IVF cycle would be in February.
I am crushed. I went to yoga that night to relax and I ended up sitting next to a pregnant lady. I started my period the very same night, just another reminder how far away I am from pregnancy. To make matters worse, my in-laws have come to visit and they are driving me crazy!!! All anyone wants to talk about is DH’s nieces (one was just born 3 months ago).
I don’t know how I’m going to get through 3 more months. I feel like IVF is my last chance at happiness and the only thing I have to look forward to.
Post # 3
@Macintosh: I’m so sorry 🙁 sometimes life has a way of kicking people when they are down. I don’t have any great suggestions, just try to hang in there! Hugs!
Post # 4
Sending hugs and prayers!
Post # 5
That’s rough, I hope the next 3 months go by quickly for you!
Post # 6
@Macintosh: I am so sorry to hear you are going through this. It breaks my heart. Just remember you are a strong woman and can make it through this! You never know what the future has in store for you. My best advice you would be to let yourself feel your feelings. I truely believe every month you get your period while trying to concieve is like mourning the loss of a baby that month. Allow yourself the time to just be sad and upset. I always find I try to tell myself I am being stupid when I am upset about something when Id actually feel much better if I would just let myself be upset. Good luck!!
Post # 7
@Macintosh: sorry bee, you deserve a break. Have you thought about a get-away or a vacation? Maybe with a gf, just yourself, or your husband. Just try to get-away from it all in a new environment.. you’ve had one hell of a year and have every right to feel depressed. But if it’s really getting you down, see a Dr. to perscribe you something to help with the anxiety/depression to ease some of the frustration.
Post # 8
Hey there. I’m so sorry about the delay.. If its not one thing it’s another. I understand your frustration. My only advise is to take advantage of these next 3 months. Do everything you can to be as healthy as can be so your body and mind is 100% ready for IVF to give you the best chances of it working. Hang in there .
Post # 9
I am so sorry, you have had an awful year 🙁 You deserve a break! I agree with PP who suggested a mini vacation. Just get away from it all for a night or two.
Post # 10
@Macintosh: Hon, just wanted to drop in to send you lots of hugs and virtual support. Unfortunateloy there’s nothing to be said.. It makes us so angry to go through such a DIFFICULT journey, and yet, there’s no one to be angry with.. which sometimes I find even more frustrating… This roller coaster is unbearable (we get somethign to look forward to when we hear about taking the next step, and then something gest in teh way, and in the mean time we continue to live in the ‘real’ world surrounded by our daily tasks and pregnancies all around us)…
I just wanted to say I applaud you either way bc it truly isn’t easy… But it also shows just how badly you want your little baby and just how wonderful you will be as a mother.
We will not give up though, our time WILL come! And sooner rather than later 🙂
Post # 11
@Macintosh: I’m sorry you’ve had such a tough year already, and now you are having to deal with another delay. I have no words of wisdom, but I hope you are able to be at peace with the road your life is taking, and when you finally are pregnant, you will have the baby that was meant for you.
Post # 12
No advice, just popping in to send positive thoughts & energy. You’ve been through enough! Hang in there dear, and BIG HUGS!!
Post # 13
Sending tons of hugs and prayers your way. Just remember this set back is only temporary. You WILL be on your way to your bfp very soon! Feel free to join us on the 1+ thread, there’s another member on there who is going through a set back as well and will be starting her FET around the same time. Big *HUGS*
Post # 14
@Macintosh: I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You and your husband have truly been to hell and back over the last year, and you deserve to move on and have a baby together. If you want some more support, come join us in the 6+ month or the 1+ year group – both are great groups of ladies all working towards the same goal you are….a BFP. I still think of you and your DH often, and I’ll keep you in my prayers for things to get a little easier and a baby to be in your near future. XOXOX
Post # 15
sending lots of hugs and prayers to you. I know firsthand how hard the waiting can be and how difficult it is to see it all around you. Keep faith that it WILL happen for you 🙂
Post # 16
@Macintosh: I’m sorry. 🙁 I know how hard the waiting is, particularly with IVF. I too have been feeling depressed and blah about everything these days because I feel like I’m just waiting, waiting, waiting to be pregnant…and I haven’t even been through a fraction of what you’ve been through this past year. I’ve had a few IVF / ET cycles delayed for one reason or another and try to comfort myself that maybe there’s some reason why it will be better for me to be pregnant a few months later than I had planned (doesn’t help much, but does a little bit). I agree with the suggestions about a little vacation if you’re able to swing it. Will be thinking of you.