(Closed) Journey of TTC after miscarriage part 5

posted 8 years ago in TTC
Post # 676
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Honey bee

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Andthepupmakes3:  Lol at peeing out your longest sleep. I know I’ve had blood tests before that showed high estradiol some months, then others I was more in a normal range. It could definitely have something to do with that. I think peeing in a cup is for sure the way to go to get more consistent readings. I’ve never had it go from flashing to blank before, that’s strange, but maybe it was just the concentration being lighter like you said! 

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Turtle83:  Thank you for not thinking I’m nuts to change my plans, and I’m sorry about DH ๐Ÿ™ I don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing to know more details like that, but I would’ve wanted to know too. I don’t like thinking about the fact that mine had a heartbeat and was apparently healthy, just in the wrong location. It all just sucks.

Post # 678
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: March 2012

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Gabrielle713:  I’m so sorry about your CP and sorry about the lack of empathy your Future Sister-In-Law.  I think people mean well but they really do not know how it feels untill it happens to them.  Everything you are feeling is totally normal and don’t let anyone let you think different. 

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MrsNebraska:  Oh no!  I’m so sorry this happened.  I know what you mean when you think this is it.  That is how I felt before my last MC.  I felt that there was no way it could happen again.  Take as much time to TTC again as you need.  I’m sure your rainbow baby is just around the corner.  We are all here for you!! 

Post # 679
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: March 2012

I was feeling a little better until I got on Facebook and saw that one of my friends is expecting her second baby the same EDD I would of had in April.  For some reason our lives were synced up.  When I told her I was engaged, she said she was too and then when I told her I was pregnant I found out she was too.  I was always about 6 months ahead of her but now I’m behind.  I should be having my second baby next month but I’ll be very lucky to have a baby by next year.   It just a weird feeling of that should be me.  oh well.  I just have to look ahead.  I’m throwing a Halloween party this weekend so I hope that will help my mood. 

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Honey bee

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4littlekitties:  Lol I was actually going to say bone in my earlier message. After talking to a nurse who said that the tech thought I’d ovulate next Friday, but the nurse thought it could happen anytime Wednesday to Friday, I spent the extra miles to make my flight a day earlier. So I still get to go, but should come home in time. All this thought into not missing my fertile window is probably going to guarantee it doesn’t happen this month anyway! That’s great they didn’t find anything unusual with your tests. Hopefully it was just shitty luck, and it’s over!!

Post # 681
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: March 2014

 

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desertgirl:  I feel ya.  My first due date was January, and my second was very early April, so the recent announcements of all the April due babies have been killing me.  At this point I just hope and pray that I’m at least pregnant during my first due date (with a healthy sticky rainbow baby, not pregnant for 2 weeks and then devastation again).  Even better if I could be announcing my July baby just around my original due date ๐Ÿ™‚  

 

Post # 682
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: November 2013

It’s early for me to be posting here, but I know that’s where I’m headed. I’m just devastated and this seems like the best place to be. After miscarrying in December of last year and after 9 cycles of trying, I got pregnant again in September. I had been seeing a RE, so they’ve been monitoring me with weekly scans. 5 weeks was spot on, 6 weeks looked a little behind with no heartbeat, 7 weeks showed a heartbeat, but measured 6 days behind, and today I fell 7 days behind and the heartbeat fell from 110 to 98. This is not the progression of a viable pregnancy and miscarriage is just about inevitable. Last time I took misoprostol and I had to redose after a scan found that the fetus hadn’t passed. I thought nothing could be worse. Now I know that’s not true. Knowing there’s this little life inside me that’s slowly slipping away is more than I can bear. All I can see is the darkness that lies ahead and it’s just killing me.

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Helper bee
  • Wedding: November 2015

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GrannyPantiesRock:  my heart sinks reading this. I wish I could give you a hug right now!!! I’m so sorry you’re going through this again. Maybe this baby isn’t the one god (or whatever higher power you acknowledge) intended for you with 10 fingers or 10 toes. Please keep your head up- you are so strong and postive and you will make an incredible mother! You WILL have your sticky baby!!! Big hugs

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Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: March 2013

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GrannyPantiesRock:  I’m so so sorry you are going through this again. It’s so bloody unfair that some people have to suffer in this way and my heart is breaking for you. If you need someone to talk to feel free to PM me. I dont want to go there yet, but can give some practical advice (I know you probably know it anyway!). So sorry again x

Post # 686
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: March 2014

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GrannyPantiesRock:  Oh my…. This is not an update I wanted to see. I know how it feels to be hopeful that this pg will stick and that the sad times are behind you, only to be devastated once again.  Maybe these recurrent losses we’re having are training to be extraordinarily strong women for our future babies.  It’s not fair that we have to struggle so much when it comes so easy to so many (some of whom don’t deserve it AT ALL).  But know that you are not alone, that there is an army of women fighting for their someday babies, and the VAST MAJORITY of them will get them.  Have faith, don’t give up, but do take a break if your heart needs it.  Hugs.  

Post # 687
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Busy bee
  • Wedding: September 2013

I just want to thank you all for your kind words and responses. I can’t tell you enough how much I appreciate you all. I am just at the tail end of my bleeding. Now I am in the confusing part of when my next period will be and how my cycles will go. I was a normal 28 day cycle post d&c, so I hope it is similar. Since I was about 5 weeks when I started bleeding, I don’t know if that counts as a period or not? Sigh!

After a long talk with DH over our vacation, I think we decided to stop TTC for awhile. This was a really hard decisioin for us to make. While I want a baby so terribly, and so does DH, this recent loss has left us at a weird timeline. We are both unhappy with our jobs and where we live. It would be really convenient to have a baby right now because of our financial situation. But DH made a great point that we shouldnt be mostly motivated by convenience. So I think we are going to move in May and get new jobs, as long as everything goes well.  I work at a college so May is the perfect time to start over somewhere else. We are actually looking at our finances to see if we will buy a home when we move. With a baby, a lot of our savings would go towards paying my insurance, so we would be stuck where we live now for a long time. So I think we will take this as a silver lining to life.

Post # 688
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Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: June 2013

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GrannyPantiesRock:  My heart hurts so much for you right now.  I know nothing we say will be able to take away the pain but just know that we are all here for you.  Take all the time you need to be angry, curse and hate the world.  That’s ok.  But I hope that when you’re ready, you will be able to once again grasp onto the hope that one day everything will work out.  I truly believe that for each one of here we will hold our rainbow babies one day.  But for now, grieve any want you want.  I’m so sorry that you have to go through this again.  {hugs}

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Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: June 2013

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GrannyPantiesRock:  Oh no. I’m so, so sorry. It’s so fucked up and unfair. Massive, massive hugs. 

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