- 7 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
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<div>I’m at work so I’ll respond to others later but…</div>
Status (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): TTC, cycle 8 post MC, CD 6.
MC History: MMC in May, TTC ever since (on 8th cycle)
Issues (if any): This is interesting and frustraing. We got pregnant our 2nd month trying, miscarried and now we are going on cycle 8. I’ve checked out fine. Only issue is potentially morph (2%), but DH’s urologist assures us that it’s nothing to be concerned about.
Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): OPKs, Temping, Prenatals, Vitamin D, Baby Aspirin, Clomid, Mucinex
Link to chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/545116
What are your biggest challenges right now? Staying positive while everyone seems to be getting pregnant but us.
Hi ladies, hope you don’t mind if I join in. I’m struggling a bit right now. My friend and I shared the same due date, except a year apart. My EDD was the 12/15/14 and her DD was 12/15/13. Her baby turns one today and I’m still trying to get pregnant again. I’m feeling frustrated and hopeless as I don’t know what is taking so long this time. I never would have thought back in May that I’d still be trying to get pregnant when that date rolled around. It happened so easily the first time. I’m trying as hard as I can not to be bitter.
My mom called yesterday and was saying how my aunts were disappointed because my SIL (5 months pregnant) wouldn’t be at Christmas because they have a gift for the baby. This just set me off. My poor mom. My actual baby should have been getting presents, f’ing MC. I feel bad because I’m happy for my SIL and brother, but I don’t want to hear about it. My mom is excited to be a grandma, but everytime she brings it up, I always have to wreck her excitement bc I’m sad and bitter. *sigh*
augiefrog: thank you and understand the feeling of wanting all of it to be over! With my last chemical, I felt so sad every time I had to go to the bathroom, is a constant reminder.
I have had two D&C with different doctors and they were totally different from each other. First one almost no pain and no blood from the surgery. Second one, lots of blood and clots. I also bled for like 2 weeks.
All this sucks big time and I am so sorry that we have to go through this hell.
AFM, I swear my coworkers and other acquaintances can sense when I’m in a good place and ruin it. DH and I were going to wait to TTC again until next month so I could get these last 5 pounds off , but I had fertile CM yesterday and felt like ovulation was about to happen so we went for it. Because we’ve both been alternating being sick, it was our first time christening our new home (we closed 12/2 and moved in 12/14.) It felt so symbolic and special and I was floating today. Then out of nowhere today, a nosy coworker started a seemingly innocent conversation, “All done with Christmas shopping for the hubby?” I replied that we weren’t doing much in the way of gifts this year because we just bought a house and have been practically spending any extra money at Home Depot. She responds with, “Oh! You know what’s next! A baby, right? How old are you, girl? Better get started!” Ugh. Thanks a lot. For the record, I’m only 28 but really? You never know what peoples’ struggles are- that should never be an okay topic of conversation. Ugh rant over.
Hi ladies… hoping it’s okay if I join.
Status (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): MC cycle
MC History: On Saturday (10w) I started having some brown spotting. Called the midwife’s office on Monday, and they had me come in. U/s found no heartbeat, and the baby was only measuring 6 weeks. We’d had an early u/s at 5w6d due to spotting/bleeding, where baby was measuring 5w5d, and we were able to see the heartbeat. Yesterday they said that it could take weeks to miscarry naturally, so I had a D&E today.
Issues (if any): None known. We’d gotten pregnant on our first cycle TTC in October.
Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): Not sure yet… I charted for a year before getting pregnant (first TTA, then TTC) so will probably do that again.
Link to chart: N/A
What are your biggest challenges right now? Getting through the day and processing this news. I still can’t believe that we’re not going to have a baby in July, and am sad/angry/frustrated/etc etc etc. I feel like my emotions are this crazy roller coaster right now. There are still moments where I can’t believe that this is happening… it kind of feels like I’m in a movie or a bad dream rather than real life.
One of my best friends had a baby today, too- when I told her about the MMC yesterday she couldn’t talk because she was in labor. I am trying to sort out my feelings about that. I am so, so excited for her and her husband, but it’s hard to figure out what all of my feelings are given our current situation. DH and I are going to go see them and meet the baby tomorrow. I think it will be hard but I guess I’m trying to separate the two events– I don’t want our loss to ruin sharing this time with them.
Current coping strategies/favorite inspirational quotes: Just trying to go with however I’m feeling at the moment.
My worst two days are coming. We were planning to announce to our families tomorrow and on Christmas. I got a little emotional on the car ride back to my SIL’s tonight with a car full of people. Luckily it was dark, so no one noticed. I am so afraid of breaking down in the middle of festivities though. I thought I was past the emotional stage. The only one who knows about the MC is DH. My goal is to focus on the people around me for the next few days.
I finally got done editing some baby photos for a friend today. I took them right after I found out I was pregnant, and I was putting off finishing them because of school, and also because I was emotionally dealing with my MC. While I was taking them I was so excited thinking about taking my own babies photos come August, and now I am just sad, but relieved that I can be done with these photos. I love my friend and her baby, but it is just a reminder of what is not going to be for me.
For some reason it cut off the rest of my comment. I was 6w2d this morning when I started to spot. I had an ultrasound at 1 pm (saw the sacs and a small fetal pole ~5 weeks) and passed the fetus at 5. I now have light cramping and bleeding. It’s happened so quickly, which is a blessing, but I feel like I don’t know which way is up. I dont have the energy to roll call, but like GPR, I also miscarried this time last year. This was mc #4 since last thanksgiving.
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