- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2012
I would definitely bring it up. Personally, I think I’m going to be a nervous wreck either way, because I also had one good and promising ultrasound the first time. But I do think extra betas and monitoring would give me piece of mind. Right now, all I know is to obviously call my OB when I get a BFP. Beyond that, I’m assuming I’ll have to ask for additional monitoring.
Many thanks to everyone for your kind words over the holidays. Puerto Rico was great, and there were no complications with the mc. I stopped bleeding around half way through. It was beautiful, we did some cool things, but I don’t remember much of it and really feel like I never went (we were there a full week.) it was hard being with his family. I had a breakdown one night & sent everyone off to dinner without me (Including Darling Husband – I needed to do some loud crying). I asked him to tell them I didn’t go because of the mc; he told them, but just that I was tired. No one acknowledged anything when they got back. I ended up sleeping 24 of 31 hours when I got back and four hours the following night. I took some melatonin last night, which helped.
i totally want to quit my job. I don’t know how to keep doing this if I may have more mcs in my future. im probably still hormonal, but I’ve told Darling Husband that this whole process is hell, and now that we’ve had four consecutive MCs, I don’t see an end in sight. I’ve never loved my job, and now I’m totally checked out. Which is stressful, even if it’s self-imposed. It really started this summer, when I passed my first due date. I was going to be a Stay-At-Home Mom. The cycles of taking pills & shots, followed by a week of forced sex, followed by a week of mental rest, followed by a week of symptom-spotting, ideally followed by a pregnancy (which makes it hard for me to pay attentio/care at worK) that will be stressful makes me want to curl up in a ball. Facing all of this is almost just as upsetting as the pregnancy loss.
In a perfect world, I’d quit and volunteer part-time doing something social service-related (I might change careers if the kid thing doesn’t work). If we had a kid, I wouldn’t be working right now anyway. Darling Husband is dismissive, but I don’t think he knows how serious I am, which makes me angry. I have a history of major depression and am in recovery, and while I don’t expect a free pass for these things or want to take advantage of anything, I think making things smaller would be good for my mental health. I’d quit TTC, but women do get pregnant after multiple MCs, but i may have a few more in my future. And, dammit, I want to deliver a baby. Thinking about this has been my distraction. This and having Taylor Swift’s Blank Space on repeat in my head. I hope they’re both unrelated.
TL/dr version: I want to quit my job and am looking for people to tell me that I should 🙂 otherwise, like most people, I’m on an emotional rollercoaster. I’m re-googling the same articles that I did this time last year. It stinks.
For some reason I’m not getting notifications in this thread, even when someone tags me in a post. Weird.
I started out this morning feeling more positive than I had in awhile. It was two weeks ago today that I had an ultrasound that diagnosed the MMC. But I was feeling optimistic, looking forward to getting pregnant again and feeling more back to normal at work. Then I read an email where a friend announced that she’s pregnant, and about a week ahead of where I was (she’s 13 weeks; I would have been 12 now). I feel totally derailed. Why does she get to get to this point and I didn’t?
This weekend felt full of babies, too, between talking to a friend with a newborn and learning about another pregnancy. But I really felt fine about it and felt like I was succeeding in being genuinely excited for other people’s babies while still being sad for mine. I don’t know why today’s announcement is hitting me so hard, maybe because the timing is so close. I have to see her tonight at a social event and I feel like there’s going to be so much talk about pregnancy. UGH.
Sorry I’ve been so MIA, the holiday’s were just so hard this year without having my dad around and the miscarriage. I would have been 13 weeks exactly December 26 so we were so looking forward to telling our family over the holidays.
I was actually avoiding one of our closest friends the last month because I was worried she was pregnant and I wasn’t sure I could handle it. We actually had her and her husband over on New Years Eve and she ended up telling me that she has fertility issues and that she’s been referred to a specialist. I felt horrible because I had no idea that they were struggling to get pregnant.
It’s been 22 days since I took the misoprostol/cytotec for my MMC and I am so frustrated because there is zero sign that I’m even getting close to ovulating. I was hoping that AF would show up by middle of January but that’s not even possible at this point. I’m just so frustrated, it’s bad enough having the MMC but now it feels like I have to wait forever for AF. I went in for blood work a week ago and my HCG still shows that I’m pregnant. I took a HPT and was so hoping it would be negative but I still got a faint BFP. I felt horrible for being upset about the BFP, but I just want this over with and to start TTC again.
I started charting again at the end of last week… today’s temp was a little up (to what would normally mean ovulation), so we’ll see if that is indicative of ovulation. FF put in all of my old patterns for this cycle, but who knows if it will go back to that pattern. I feel the same way as you do about just wanting this to be over and wanting to get started TTC. Sometimes I feel like I’m in a nightmare that I can’t wake up from, but I don’t see that feeling really going away until I’m pregnant again and through the first tri.
That is too bad about your friend. Obviously just reminds us all that you just never know what people are going through. This friend of mine who just announced mentioned awhile ago that they were trying/NTNP, so I was wondering if she was either pregnant or if they were having issues.
So I’m new to this group. Had a very rough New Years. Went in for a 12 week NT scan only to find out that I had an MMC. They had me medically induce labor only for me to end up in the ER due to blood loss. I had to put on the second coat of paint in the nursery last night, and that was really rough too. I’d put the first coat on the night before the ultrasound.
Status (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): MC Cycle. Waiting for AF
MC History: MMC this weekend. I was supposed to be 12 weeks, but the baby never made it that far.
Issues (if any): None that I know of. Doctor won’t do tests unless I have two MCs in a row. Hopeing this was just a bad sperm/egg combo and not something more serious
Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): Nothing different. Got pregnant on the second cycle TTC last time. Just going to keep taking prenatals and hope for the best.
Link to chart: Not currently charting
What are your biggest challenges right now? Knowing when to try again. I’d like to try soon. Anxiety about it happening again is going to be a big issue for me.
Current coping strategies/favorite inspirational quotes: Nothing really. Just trying to stay positive. My husband has been really great with it and has been a huge help.
Mine was a MMC but also may have been a blighted ovum. They couldn’t even find a fetal pole when I got my ultrasound. Since I was low risk and young and healthy (and have a tilted uterus making it hard to see the baby via ultrasound early on) he decided that I didn’t need an ultrasound untill 12 weeks.
I think one of the reasons this has been so difficult for me is that I believed I was having a baby for almost 12 weeks. Had they just done a dating ultrasound, they probably could have told me the pregnancy wasn’t viable and I could have started the healing process then. It’s very emotionally hard for me to know that my baby never really was developing. Probably never had a heart beat. For 12 weeks.
Next time around I’ll be more insistant on a dating ultrasound to know the baby is ok.
I’ve been taking a break from WB and I’m so sad to see all the new/old faces here. It seems so unfair. I have been feeling so much jealousy lately especially around the holidays. My husbands cousin came over with her 4 kids and one on the way. She asked when I was going to have another one. I made the mistake and said when God decides because that is really what I feel now. She said – You are taking care of yourself, right? and then my Mother-In-Law says oh, they are not trying. She doesn’t know about my year of hell. It makes me angry that she would ask that because I have been taking care of myself. She on the other hand is overweight and has been for a long time. Not that is a determining factor but it just makes me upset. Yesterday was my sons birthday and everyone(YES everyone) asked when I’m having the next one. This time I just said I don’t know as if maybe never.
Ok, now that is off my chest lets try to heal each other and make 2015 the best that we can. I’m hoping we all get our rainbows.
The topic ‘Journey of TTC after miscarriage part 6’ is closed to new replies.