(Closed) Journey of TTC after miscarriage part 6

posted 5 years ago in TTC
Post # 752
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1157 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2014

Thank you everyone for all your kind words. Sorry for complaining so much here. I’m just so frustrated. My doctor suspects a partial molar pregnancy. Hopefully the D&C will get analyzed and come back negitive. I’m still holding out some hope that Friday’s blood draw will come back at less than 15. But I took a test this moring and it was very very very faintly positive still. So I’m not holding my breath. I hope some of you ladies are having a little better of a week than I am.

Post # 753
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1534 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2013

MechEBee:  I am SO sorry you are still dealing with this.  I can’t even imagine how frustrating it is.  At least if you do get a D&C, it will be over– I had a D&E after my MMC was diagnosed (vacuum rather than scraping but otherwise the same) and it was totally easy, physically.  I hope you can finally get some closure on this!!

Post # 754
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Newbee
  • Wedding: September 2011

SaltedCaramel:  How is your pregnancy going thus far? Have you been able to curb your worry?  Are you going to go in for any early blood draws?  My doctor said she would order early blood tests for me the next time I get pregnant to check my hcg levels if I want, but I don’t think I will unless I think there is a problem.  I feel the blood draws are stressful, but sometimes it’s stressful just wondering too.  So I don’t know.  So far my doctor said she wants me to do baby aspirin/progesterone supplements next time around.  I have some weird blood disorder (which may or may not be related to mc) that they found in the testing after my 2nd miscarriage, so I may go see a hematologist at the suggestion of my RE.  This blood thing is kind of rare though, so not sure how much they would know about it.  From what I’ve read online, some doctors think it’s related to first tri mc and others do not.  Anyways, hope all is going well with you. I wanted to thank you for all your kind words previously – but I took a little break from this board, and by the time I came back you already had your BFP!  Fx that everything goes smoothly for you this time and you get your take home baby!

Post # 755
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2014

SaltedCaramel:  Thanks. If it’s molar than I have to wait a year before TTC 🙁 At this point I’m just hoping it isn’t that. I go in for a blood draw on Friday. Cross your fingers for me.

Hows your pregnancy going so far? Is the doctor doing anything special for you because of the MMC?

Post # 756
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23 posts
Newbee
  • Wedding: September 2011

MechEBee:  That is terrible!  So sorry you have to be going through this.  I would be frustrated beyond belief.  MC is hard enough as it is, let alone having it go on for so long.  My heart goes out to you.  Hoping you get some resolution on this soon.

Post # 757
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2013

Magnolia_Mountain:  It’s going well, thanks for asking.  I did end up doing two rounds of betas last week, which were good.  And the nurse offered to schedule an early u/s without my even asking, so I’ll do that next week at 6.5w.  I’m also doing progesterone supplements, unclear if they were needed but it feels like I’m gdoing something.  Sometimes I go down the path of worrying, but try to just redirect my thoughts, and I’m mostly feeling optimistic.

Interesting about the blood disorder– that sounds very confusing that it may or may not be linked to MC.  I think as far as testing next time, you just have to see how you feel, but there’s no wrong answer.  Thank you for the good thoughts, and I hope you get another BFP very soon!!

Post # 758
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2013

MechEBee:  OMG, a year????  I have never heard that about molar pregnancies, though I know they are rare.  How will they find out for sure, do they do more testing?  I’m sorry you are going through this, it’s not fair!  I just missed your post and replied to Magnolia Mountain above with more details, but my pregnancy is going well so far.  It’s still super early (5w3d) and I am very aware that nothing is guaranteed, but I’m cautiously optimistic.

Post # 759
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Newbee
  • Wedding: September 2011

As for me, I’ve been having a rough week.  A lot of pregnancy talk at my work, which isn’t helping much.  Luckily we are allowed to wear headphones, so I am able to drown some of it out.  I am just hoping AF returns sooner than later.  I think the soonest it could come back is 3 weeks from now.  Just hoping my body gets back on track this month.  I am opting out of all the Easter family things this weekend to avoid the babies in the family.  I feel kind of rude doing that, but I am still not okay – and I think crying in front of everyone, or trying to fake that I’m fine would just make for an even more uncomfortable situation.  Also, no one really knows what to say, and I feel like everyone treats me like I am some wounded animal.  So the whole thing would just get awkward real fast.  Therefore, I am probably doing everyone a favor by staying home.  I am also considering going to see a therapist – for some of the depression/grief/anger/jealousy aspects, and the anxiety of trying again.  Not sure if that’s overkill at this point though.  *Sigh* I just don’t know anymore.  It’s just really sucky that it’s spring and I should be past my first trimester – and I’m just back to square one again.  I just feel so defeated and sad.

Post # 760
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Newbee
  • Wedding: September 2011

SaltedCaramel:  Are you doing oral progesterone supplements or suppositories? My RE said she would prescribe 200 mg suppository.  Just wondered how that compared to anyone else taking the supplements.  I would agree that it would give me some comfort, knowing I was doing something next time.

Post # 761
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1534 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2013

Sorry to hear that you’re having a rough week.  I think it’s totally fine to opt out of the Easter stuff if you feel like it will be too uncomfortable.  You just have to take care of yourself.  Also, I don’t think it’s overkill at all to talk to a therapist– I was thinking about it too and then didn’t end up doing it, but the idea of having someone help process all of this is great.  Especially when I felt like my friends IRL didn’t really get it… it was helpful to talk to them but the ladies of WB have been way more helpful.  And I totally know the feeling that you should be to X weeks by now, and feeling  sad and angry and jealous and everything else that you’re not.  It really, really sucks.  I hope AF comes back soon and you have a super sticky baby shortly after that!

Post # 762
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2013

Magnolia_Mountain:  I’m on suppositories, but it’s a gel with 8% concentration.  So I don’t know how that compares to milligrams.  It seems like progesterone is given in so many different forms.  I think suppository is supposed to be easier to absorb.  I was a little weirded out by the idea of it but it’s really not a huge deal– the gel is in these little things that look like a tampon applicator.

Post # 763
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Newbee
  • Wedding: September 2011

SaltedCaramel:  I’ve heard the gel is better, as the suppository pills can be kind of messy and gross.  I will ask my doctor about it.  Thanks!

Post # 764
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Helper bee
  • Wedding: November 2013

I had my Drs appointment this morning and the cytotec didn’t get everything out.  So I will be having a D&E this afternoon.  I am just starting to feel like this is a long drawn out nightmare that I just want to be over. I have never had general anesthesia before and I know they do these all the time, but I am pretty terrified.  I just am hoping everything goes smoothly.

Post # 765
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2014

happyheartbee:  I’m sorry you’re going through this. Hopefully the D&C gets everything out and you can start the healing process.

Post # 766
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2014

Got my blood drawn this moring. Now we play the waiting game…

Ever feel like this whole TTC and pregnancy thing is just one waiting game after another? Lol.

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