(Closed) Journey of TTC after miscarriage part 6

posted 5 years ago in TTC
Post # 797
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4426 posts
Honey bee
  • Wedding: December 2013

HaaaveYouMetTed:  I’m so sorry you are having to go through this and have to be here. I went through the same thing (I was almost 6.5 weeks when I found out and started bleeding the day after they called telling me my hcg had tanked to 8). Nothing helps during this time, but know you are not alone. Let yourself grieve as long as you need. Also, know you did nothing to cause this. Thinking of you.

Post # 798
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Honey bee
  • Wedding: August 2012

HaaaveYouMetTed:  I’m sorry you are going through this, especially at a bachelorette party.  The first week that I found out I was going to MC was the worst emotionally and physically.  Do what you need to during the next few days and weeks to help work through this and FX you start feeling better soon. 

Post # 799
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1920 posts
Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: November 2013

Roll call:

Status (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): D&C Cycle

MC History: This was the first time I got pregnant after a year of trying so of course, our first miscarriage. 

Issues (if any): None, I should find out in 2 weeks whether it was a chromosome issue with the fetus. 

Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): Being that was our first IUI cycle, we are going to do the same thing on our next cycle. 

Link to chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/mijes1104

What are your biggest challenges right now? The biggest challenge is just getting through this emotionally and hoping this cycle moves quick so we can move onto the next. 

Current coping strategies/favorite inspirational quotes: I don’t know. Some days I’m great and feel very positive and the next I’ve hit rock bottom again. Today was one of those rock bottom days. 🙁

Post # 801
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: November 2010

Roll call:

Status (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): MC cycle

MC History: This is our first pregnancy and first MC. Got a BFP on 3/31 and miscarried on 4/11 at 5 weeks.

Issues (if any): None that I know of. Hypothyroid but it is monitored and under control. 

Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): Not sure yet exactly… No idea what caused the MC so I’m not sure what to correct, if anything.

Link to chart: N/A

What are your biggest challenges right now? Right now I’m just trying to focus on anything else. I work full time and go to school full time, so I’m trying to get back into a routine.

Current coping strategies/favorite inspirational quotes: I’ve allowed myself a few days to just lay, heal, and be sad. Also found this today: “You will get there when you are meant to get there and not one moment sooner. So relax, breathe, and be patient.”

Post # 802
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328 posts
Helper bee
  • Wedding: September 2012

Hello Ladies. Sorry we are meeting under such circumstances. I am coming over from the December 2015 JingleBabies board. You can look there if you would like to see more about my story. I was about 6 weeks along.

Roll call

Status (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): MC cycle.

MC History: This was my first ever pregnancy. I had myBFP on 4/5/15 (3 more positives that followed) after a negative test on 3/28/15 when I missed AF. I started spotting on 4/13/15 and bleeding on 4/12/15. I went to ER yesterday (4/12/15) and they confirmed my first MC.

Issues (if any): N/A

Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): Just prenatals. Probably going to try again in September.

Link to chart: N/A. I chart on an app on my phone.

What are your biggest challenges right now? Right now my biggest challenge is just how difficult it is to deal with the loss. I had no clue it would be this difficult. I feel sad for the baby, sad for Darling Husband, and sad for myself. I only had the baby for a second but the sadness is so great. Concentrating while at work is also proving to be difficult.

Current coping strategies/favorite inspirational quotes: Darling Husband and I are just leaning on each other and telling ourselves that this happened for a reason.

Post # 803
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2014

I’m sorry to see so many new people here. 🙁 I hope you guys are doing ok. It’s a rough time, but you came to a great place for support.

Post # 804
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4426 posts
Honey bee
  • Wedding: December 2013

MissB2MrsO:  I’m so sorry you are here. Please give yourself all the time you need to grieve. We’re here for you!

Post # 805
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4426 posts
Honey bee
  • Wedding: December 2013

MissB2MrsO:  I know what you mean by how much grief there is. I didn’t expect the sheer sucker punch feeling I had when I found out my hcg was 8. I don’t think anyone can tell you that feeling unless they’ve experienced it. It’s sad and I would sway between sheer grief and anger for the first few days. It’s all normal. 

Post # 806
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4675 posts
Honey bee
  • Wedding: August 2012

MissB2MrsO:  I’m so sorry that you are joining us, but this is a very supportive group.  The emotions are the worst.  I would have to shut myself down to get through the day, then the moment I had an opportunity I just had to let the tears out.  I hope it gets better for you, and that you start to feel better soon.  

Post # 807
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4675 posts
Honey bee
  • Wedding: August 2012

MechEBee:  How are you doing?  Any news on your HCG level? 

Post # 808
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1157 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2014

auggiefrog:  Had an appointment with my doctor this morning. I also seem to have started my first “real” AF this morning. Almost 15 weeks after my MC. But who is counting?

Because of AF, my doctor had me get one more blood draw this morning to see if it was down. If my results are still positive, he wants to schedule a D&C. He said they likely won’t get any tissue to test since my levels are so low, but it should help my body “reset.”

He also said that in his 20 years as an OBGYN this is the first case he’s ever seen that Cyotec (sp?) didn’t get everything out. He said the only other possibility is that I had twins, one etopic and the other in the uterus. Which would mean that the one in the uterus was expelled and I still have one in a tube causing low hCG levels. He said odds of that are 1 in 40,000. But with how things have been going, that would be just my luck.  

Post # 809
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1920 posts
Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: November 2013

MissB2MrsO:  I’m so sorry that you have found yourself here. Even though I just had my D&C, it’s comforting to come here knowing that all of the ladies here have experienced the same thing. I don’t feel alone, which I have been the past week. I have family that support me, but it’s always nice to talk to ladies who know exactly what you’re going through. Every day is a different battle for me. I can be fine one day and then super depressed the next. But I guess all these feelings come with such a loss.  Just know we are here for you! 

MechEBee: 15 weeks?!? For real? Shit, I’m praying I get my period in 4 weeks! I give you so much credit. I know it ranges for every woman. I called my nurse today to find out when we could start the next IUI and she said the doctor may want to do another sonohysterogram on Day 7-10 of my cycle. So she said if I don’t want to wait another cycle, I could go on birth control. I hate hearing the words going on birth control but if it means I can do my next IUI sooner, then I’m fine with it. 

Post # 810
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1592 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: November 2010

MiJeS1104:  Every day is a different battle for me. I can be fine one day and then super depressed the next.

I can totally relate to this, and I’m only on day 3. This morning, even after the doctor confirmed my MC, I was weirdly ok. Like I accepted the fact that these things happen and was super confident about trying again in a few months. Tonight, I’m just sitting in disbelief that this really happened. My worst fear from the moment I got my BFP really happened. And I can’t help but feel so sad and angry and confused. I did everything right (to my knowledge) while my niece’s drug abuser of a mom can successfully carry four babies. It’s just not fair. Not that I would wish this on anyone, but it’s just not fair.

 

Post # 811
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1920 posts
Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: November 2013

HaaaveYouMetTed:  That’s exactly how I felt when I went for my followup ultrasound. The heart beat was only 62 bpm 5 days before, so by the time the 2nd ultrasound happened, I had already grieved and went through every emotion possible. So once the doctor confirmed there was no heartbeat, I had already accepted it because I was expecting it. So I figured OK, I can move on, I’m handling this well. Then a few days later and I’m back to being depressed and bouts of crying. It isn’t fair. I keep thinking of my best friend who is pregnant with her 2nd and got pregnant both times within 2 months. And I just ask why can’t that be me? Why can’t I…  first, get pregnant so easily, and 2nd, have a no worries pregnancy. I’m angry because I will never have that. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m always a worrier or because of the miscarriage, but I feel even when I get my next BFP, I’ll be scared to get excited until I’m further along. It just sucks! 

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