- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2013
Hopefully this will work, I am on my phone and will post the link later if it doesn’t work. I am so frustrated. My mom almost never posts stuff on Facebook but I found this gem yesterday after we hung out at my pool all afternoon. Ugh !
Heres a little backstory: I always struggled with my weight growing up and grew up in the church with such a strict mindset that I wasn’t suppose to feel beautiful or be a temptation for guys, I was so paranoid about this in high school that I felt worthless and struggled with my weight hiding behind clothes to cover my insecurities thinking all men would lust after me if I didn’t . I even went so far as to wear a one piece with boy swim shorts over it when I swam. I always swore I’d break out of my shell and this is the first year I bought a bikini and have lost enough weight to feel comfortable wearing it. In my opinion it’s fairly modest and covers everything but my tummy. My husband is a classy Christian man and even encouraged me to finally take the plunge and stated he didn’t see anything wrong with it. He also doesn’t see an average bikini as sexual, but simply women’s swimwear.
Now I’m not condemning anyone who feels wearing bikinis is wrong but I do feel incredibly judged by my mom a woman I usually look up to. A lot of my Christian friends wear two pieces to swim in and none of us do it to draw unwanted attention. Sorry if this post sounds extreme to some of you buts that’s where I came from in the church. I still identify as a Christian woman. But certainly have different standards than most people I grew up with. I’m sorry, but to all who would judge my decisions I feel my religion is so much more than what I do or do not wear. Thoughts?