- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2014
Okay, so I just want to lay this out first. Of course the most important detail about my wedding is that I’m marrying my fiance! I don’t need the fancy wedding, cake, music, etc. Even though it’s every girls dream to have that day to feel like a princess and dance the night away with friend, family, and the filling up of love!
So, with that said, we cannot afford the wedding we truly want (and if we did, it wouldnt be till 2016-17 and I cannot wait that long! lol) so we’re going to go to the justice of the peace and have a little “dinner/recepetion” at a resturant that has a fairly large party room that splits the distnaces for both families.
However, part of me is a little depressed. My parents never had a “wedding” either, they went to the justice of the peace and then went to my grandparents for the memorial day party they were having. So they have like one picture of them before going to the courthouse and thats it.
(Ugh, I’m already crying now lol)
But, I’m just sad because I’m not going to be able to have those memories to look back on, or those memories to show my kids when they ask about it. I wont be able to tell them, “How handsome daddy looked when I was walking down the aisle” or “how much my dress made me feel like a princess”, and the one that kills me the most is the face that I wont have the father/daugther dance to cherish.
Yes, I know I can still have pictures taken and stuff. But somehow, it’s just not going to feel the same. And I’m sure that once the marriage does happen, I’m going to happy as ever! But just looking towards the future, it’s going be a little sad when (if I have one) my daugther asks to see my wedding dress or see a picture of me and daddy when we were married, i dont be able to tell her the fairy tale wedding story.
Also, and I’m not angerly jealous of this, actually, I’m VERY happy and excited for her. But my fiances sister and us got engaged the same day! (Christmas morning of last year) and she has everything already to go and is actually getting married in like 2 weeks! Shes so happy and excited and it is very exciting and I can tell that we’re going to be great sister-in-laws in the future! But part of me is a little worried. Their grandmother gave his sister $1000 for her wedding and bought her ceremony music, and said that she would do the same for our wedding. And I’m NOT NOT NOT NOT saying that shes the kind of person that would do this, but I have this slight fear that when they find out that we’re going to have a “big/real wedding” shell back out. Again, NOT saying she will, its just a typical fear lol.
And yes, I know it’s their daugther/granddaughter thats getting married in like 2 weeks, and its exciting and everyone is going crazy to get everything situated! But other than his sister, no one has asked us how our wedding planning is going. It’s weird. Again, I understand theyre worried and getting ready for hers (since they planned it in like 7 months) but just a little “hey, how is it going?” would be nice, you know?
Ooookay. I’m stopping. I just needed to get that out. Siiigh.