- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2010
UUUUUUGH! one less thing on my “to do list”! finally i found some jewelry (which i just purchased) to go with my gown…. 1 more month to go and less things to do! what a relief!!!!! now the day is getting freacking close and im getting really super excited, nervous, scared, happy, sad, stressed, anxious… all these emotions dont make any sense! im feeling really sick to my stomach if i think that in 31 days i will be a married woman! who would have ever tought about it! i have always been the unlucky one in love of the 3 sisters,(and among friends) and i am the first one to getting married! life sometimes is funny! i was always in search of the perfect guy and i always met big huge a$$holes…and when i wasnt expecting anything HE came around! lol story of my life! as soon as i started talking to him i just knew we were meant to be together! funny story, 2 yrs before i met Fiance i went to a psychic because i was “in love” with this other jerk and i wanted to know if me and this duche would have a life together ( i know pathetic) instead she told me that i was going to meet this guy who wasnt from here, but from another state (at that time i used to live in florida), handsome dark hair and dark eyes young men; she saw him standing on my left side (which means he was standing by my heart), that i already knew this person and his initials were DL..i was like “pftt!sure she just made her day with my money”..so following week i went to another different psychic who kinda told me the same things, that i knew this person because we were together in our privious lives, that i was about to meet him in one of my future trip in the new england area, that he had dark hair and dark eyes etc etc… of course, i didnt pay attention to all this info because i was blind for this duche guy and i didnt care because i wanted this other guy.. anyways 2 yrs went by and guess what? my friend and i decided to come up to boston for a mini vacation where we had some friends, and the very last night of my trip i met Fiance, who was friend of a friend. we both fell in love the same night we met, but i had to leave to come back home and i was really upset bc i thought he was probably another duche and with my luck this wasnt going to work, BUT he showed me he was interested bc he started to calling every single day..every night at 10pm we had our phonedate and we would speak at the phone for hours…little by little the psychich words came to my mind and everything made sense, she was also right about his initial and that fracked me out!!!!! Fiance is really a reserved person, totaly opposite of me, so i didnt know he was so crazy in love with me until one day, probably few months later, our friend(his roommate at that time, who introduced us) told me that the first night he met me he couldnt stop talking about me and that FI said to him “watch me! i will marry that girl”!when i think about it, it still gives me chills! i can not believe that after all i went through, suffering for guys cause no one never liked me back, i finally found the right person for me. he is the sweetest guy i have ever met!when i am with him i feel so good! there are no words to describe it!and now i am marrying this person! life without him wouldnt make any sense! i love him to death!
sorry if it is kinda long and probably you are not even interested, but as the wedding date gets closer, im getting really emotional… i cant wait to marry him, but at the same time im soooo scared of our future together! i know we will be doing just fine, i just dont want to have any down moments with him, but only UP UP UP!!!!
im so stressed right now! this wedding preparation is coming to an end and i feel like life is coming to a turning point…what is going to be next? i guess thats why im a “little” anxious! i dont know what to expect from the future after the wedding! i am thinker person and i always think think think tili get headaches! it is normal being this scared?!?!
thanks for listening, i just needed to put my feelings out there and vent a little….