Post # 1
But waaaaah, it’s so hard! I’m just havin’ one of those days, y’all. You know the ones-the kind where you moon over rings and dresses online all day, and then get all OCD with catching up on dvr’d episodes of SYTTD. Yeah, I’m having that day, again. With my 30th looming up exactly two weeks from today (sorry if I’ve mentioned my b-day alot lately) I’m freaking out a little about it, like alot of ppl do I’m sure, and it just amplifies all the anxieties I have about waiting.
I just want to shake sit him down and (with a giant spotlight pointed at his face) say to him, “I find in absolutely un-fathomable that if you want to marry me, you’re not doing everything possible to make that happen. Do you actually want to marry me, or are you just saying that, and ‘going along’ because you just want to make me happy? It sometimes feels as if you’d be perfectly okay with us never getting married, just keep things the way they are forever, and you’d be perfectly content and fine and happy with that.”
I gonna go ahead and say right here and now, that I cannot be held responsible for what may spill out of my very drunk and very emotional mouth on the night of my birthday. If I break the Christmas Challenge promise, I’m apologizing in advance.
End of vent. Thanks for listening bees!
Post # 3
I think allowences should be made for drinking on birthdays during the Christmas Challenge. Sorry it’s a bad day for you… I guess I can say “I know how you feel?”
I remember feeling really glum at my 30th, partly for the lack of a marraige, but also because I had no (sane) family with whom to share it… my Boyfriend or Best Friend got his family to surprise me with a small get together, but I ended up crying because it hurt that a group of people to whom I am still not officially attached did more than people who share my DNA. Bleh.
Don’t worry about the number of the year – you’re only as old as you feel, and I have celebrated my 8th annual 25th birthday last March 😛 If your SO syas he’s working on getting things together, then he is. I like to speak in analogiese, so here goes:
At my first “real” job interview, I was given a typing test – I’m no typist, as my posts show, but usually I’m a pretty good hunt-and-pecker (except on message boards – typos abound). I was doing just fine, UNTIL the interviewer came and stood right behind me. I panicked, got anxious and self councois and didn’t feel so good about my typing and just wanted to stop, and run and hide. I think everyone gets nervous when the boss is watching… so if your SO thinks you’re watching over his shoulder, he’s gonna want to run and hide. I think the hardest thing to do is to stay away from the “Why aren’t you telling me you love me by proposing this very moment” feelings (and boy, is that hard – I was just having a pity party myself before getting on here) and try to do/think of anything else.
PS What is SYTTD? (Haven’t had cable TV in 7 years – TV dunce)
Post # 4
@Isilme: SYTTD: Say yes to the dress. Also, I love your “analogeise” 🙂 And great analogy! I never thought of it that way but it’s so true!
Post # 5
No sage advice, but I have to say I’m having one of those days too. 🙁
I almost started a post titled ‘One of those days’ with the post going something like this:
Picture me with my hands on the side of my head, pulling my hair as hard as possible.LMAO!
Post # 6
@Isilme: That’s just it, he’s never said he’s working on it, or even hinted that he’s had an inkling of thinking about rings. Just mentions ‘the future’ or ‘when we get married’ in really vague terms in passing conversation. And I lovelovelove analogies, sometimes I think they get the point across better 🙂
It’s a show called Say Yes To The Dress, about a big couture boutique in NY called Kleinfeld’s. For me (and probably alot of gals these days) it’s like peering into a Ferrari dealership, when your budget is more like a Honda. <–see, analogy 🙂
I’m probably gonna go bury myself into a book pretty soon. I love being able to escape into the story, and not have to think about real life stuff, lol. It helps.
Post # 7
@MsMamaBear: lol, I guess this is just another example where some of us waiting gals are ‘cycling’ at the same time again 🙂
Post # 8
Yep, I hate this part. I’m gonna Christmas shop to distract myself! lol
Post # 9
I think you can just let him know – “by the way, I’m ready”
Some guys need to be told – it is a nervewracking thing to propose!