- 6 months ago
- Wedding: November 2010
I feel the need to correct some of the information that was in my previous postings about my ketamine infusion experiences, evidently, my experiences with ketamine are outside of the norm. If anyone has been misled, that was never my intention and I am deeply sorry.
Thus far, I have had eight 2 hour ketamine infusions. Two hours is long, your clinician should design your treatment plan based on your goals. A 40 minute session is more common. My initial hope was to get help with a torturous itch that has been diagnosed as neuropathic. Seemed logical, since k works so well for neuropathic pain, as well as depression, even treatment resistant, and showing exceptionally good results treating PTSD.
My first six sessions were on consecutive days, very tiring. The first session, I was alone The next five, Dh sat with me. Once there was someone present, a safe person, incredible stuff started coming up from my abusive childhood. The k has a dissociative effect, so I was an observer, but, at the same time, finally able experience the feelings from so long ago. Dh’s main job was to pick up my threads as I dropped them. I would start talking about a memory, that would trigger something else, and I would lose my original thought. Most of what came up were events I had conscious memory of, I was just tightly defended against the emotional content. One surprise was learning just how traumatic some events were when I was very young, around three. I never had a clue how deeply affected I was. It took me a week or to to process.
The next two booster sessions, Dh was replaced by a therapist affiliated with the clinic. It seemed necessary if I was going to go any deeper.
The experience was exponentially more powerful and productive. If any of you try k and there is a way to have a therapist who understands k, sit with you, I can’t recommend it strongly enough.
Before my most recent session I got 30 minutes of acupuncture before the k. Great prelude to k.
So to get to the actual point. I was told yesterday at the clinic that my experiences are very rare. Very few people are able pull out memories and verbalize clearly and cohesively. I felt terrible. That’s something I never knew.
Everyone’s k experience will be unique to that person. The brain knows what it needs to do to heal.
Again, my humblest apologies to anyone who feels misled.