- 7 years ago
This is mostly for those bees in LDR, although anyone else can respond as well. 🙂 This isn’t just SO related, also deals with friends and family. It’s mostly just a vent.
Okay so I’m in a LDR. I’m in the military, so is Fiance. He is stationed stateside and I’m stationed overseas. My family lives in the states as well, as do my closest friends. I do have friends where I’m stationed, don’t get me wrong, but I’m not as close with them yet as I am with my best friends in the states. So time-wise I’m 14 hours ahead of Fiance, and 15 hours ahead of my family and closest friends. Basically, I’m sleeping when they are working, they are sleeping when I’m working. I sometimes am able to talk to Fiance for about 10 minutes before I go to work in the mornings. By the time I get home in the evening, he (and my family/friends) is asleep.
So since I don’t get to talk with him or them much during the week, I figured that I’d get to talk to them on the weekends with like skype and facebook. So anyway, I have made it a point to get up early on my Saturdays and Sundays, even though I do like sleeping in, so that I can talk to them before they go to bed. I don’t want them to talk to me all weekend long by any means, just an hour or even just 30 minutes would be nice because I miss them. But I feel like all week, I get messages from them saying how they’re looking forward to talking to me over the weekend and they give me times when they’ll be online… and then the weekend rolls around, I get up and none of them are anywhere to be found or they are only available for a few minutes.
My siblings all have children of their own and my mom sometimes babysits for them or for my stepsisters children and her and my stepdad are kind of renovating their house, so I understand that they can’t always fit me into their schedules. Fiance goes out every Friday night for ‘guys night’ which I don’t mind at all, but then I feel like he spends the rest of the weekend playing video games and stuff, and barely talks to me. It’s not like he’s ignoring me by any means though.
I guess I just feel kind of pushed to the side? I go out with my friends here and I go to the gym for me time, but I’d still like to talk to them a little bit. I just feel lonely. I wake up on the weekends early and then I wonder why I bother. Sometimes I feel like not even getting on skype or facebook, to see if they’d even notice. I don’t want to sound like I’m whining, I know they all have lives of their own.
Thanks bees, I just needed to vent. Sorry it’s so long. I guess I’m just wondering if I’m dumb or too needy for feeling that way? Or if I should mention it? Sigh.