I’m thankful that I never had super-firm expectations of where I would be, which is surprising considering I’m very type-A and I plan everything.
I never thought I would get married, never imagined or planned out my wedding, until I started dating my boyfriend. I did think we’d be engaged by now (been together for 3 years, talking about marriage and living together almost that entire time), so that’s a little frustrating. But I have to keep in mind that just a few years ago I had no timetable in my head at all. I’m lucky enough that I found someone I want to be with, so I need to stop spending my energy “waiting.” I also said I’d never live with someone before marriage, but turns out I really love the companionship I get living with my boyfriend. My day to day happiness is more important to me than something I decided years ago, or something that everyone says is a bad idea.
Career-wise, I am very satisfied with where I am. It’s not what I thought I’d be doing, but I love it. I get to do what I’m good at, and I’m also challenged, every single day at work. I thought I’d be in some high-powered, high-paying job where I travel a lot and wear suits every day. It turns out that traveling for work is actually exhausting and I like to be home with my boyfriend and my cat, and wearing suits on a daily basis really sucks. My salary and job title is pretty low for my education and experience, but I’ve come to terms with living a comfortable and frugal life instead of a glamorous, expensive one. I didn’t expect that I’d get a master’s degree, so I’m happy I’ve achieved that.
Physically, I’m pretty satisfied. I could lose a few pounds, but I’m confident that I will if I keep up the long-term exercise and healthy diet I’ve been doing.
Spiritually, I’ve always considered myself atheist, but I’ve recently been more open. I’ve always beleived in spirituality (I don’t believe in a god, but I do believe in energy, and that people have souls that exist after death), so I’m more recently accepting of the fact that I could be considered spiritual. I’ve been thinking more about meditation, the power of thoughts, etc. So, I’m pretty satisfied in this area, even though I still feel like I have a much longer “spiritual journey” ahead of me.
Financially, I’m not where I thought I’d be. I’ve always been someone who paid off all my credit cards each month, and somewhere a couple years ago I stopped being able to do that, and now I carry a balance. Taking a hard look at my student loans, expenses, etc., has been difficult, but I now feel much more in control and I have a budget and I stick to it. I’m trying to pay off all my debt so that I can start the home-buying process and it’s just daunting that I have so much work left to do in that area. However, it’s not like there’s a strict schedule besides my own impatience. I’m actually thankful I’ve had some years of financial struggle because I feel it will help me manage my money long-term.
Overall, I’m pretty satisfied. I’m not exactly where I thought, but I’m okay with it. The older I get, the more okay I am with uncertainty. I just have to keep that in mind and not let the little things get me down.