- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
Hi fellow Waiting Bees! I’m having a difficult waiting day–not just about getting married but in general–so I was hoping I could turn to y’all for your help and support.
I’m almost done with college (one semester left: I’m graduating a semester early) and am on summer break right now. After college, I’m going to seminary to become a minister, so I’m in the process of waiting to see if I’m accepted from the first two schools I applied to. The last two summers, I lived away from home at summer jobs (a summer camp and an internship), and this is the first summer I didn’t get hired for a ministry job away from home. I know it was the right thing for me–most summer jobs in ministry are exclusively in youth-and-children related fields (summer camps, etc.) and I know that’s not where I’m being called: but at the same time, it’s so hard being home & working on our farm painting fences all summer (it pays fine but isn’t exactly stimulating :P). Since I’m 21 now and far removed from high school, all of my high school friends no longer live in my town and my college friends are all off doing their summer thing, and my boyfriend is traveling a lot (he’s in New Mexico for a school leadership retreat that I couldn’t do because they don’t allow people who are graduating a semester early), and I’m…waiting.
And then there’s my relationship waiting of course. Now, I know i’m lucky, because we have a timeline set, and I know I’m going to get engaged this summer. But we already know we’re getting married next May because we have to due to being able to live together (because of my religious affiliation the church wouldn’t allow us to live together before marriage), and I’d really like to start planning and booking things for sure because it’s already less than a year away. We’ve already talked about what vendors we want and such, and we’re on the same page, but I’d feel very uncomfortable booking them with everyone asking me where the ring is. I know the only reasons I’m waiting is because he wants to wait to propose until my sister is back from her trip in Africa in early July so I can share the news with her, but it’s still hard to wait.
I’m trying not to be impatient, but it’s hard feeling like I’m waiting for my life to begin in every way…I’m throwing myself into my hobbies (writing, swimming, reading, etc.) and I’ve written hand-written letters to all my friends, but I still can’t find anything that really gets me out of this funk other than knowing this all will get better eventually.
Encouragement and support would be great right now.