- 7 years ago
- Wedding: August 2013 - An amazing non-profit retreat
I’ve been laying awake until late at night for the past week or so. My brain won’t shut up. I thought it was pre-engagement anxiety, and I actually fooled myself into thinking that if he proposes then my mind will shut up.
Then I realized that it’s not even about that. I’ve just been distracting myself with this. It’s about the fact that right now, I feel like I’m stuck. I’m not sure what my career path is, if it will work out, when I will graduate, any of it. I don’t have a plan. I’m just (hopefully) going into my last year of school, BUT the thought of graduating terrifies me.
What if I’m a flop and I get stuck working at this call centre forever? I’ve worked enough crappy jobs to last a lifetime… I just need to know if I’ll be successful, but at what?! Do I pick journalism, PR, publishing, what? Hopefully the shot of rum I just took will help my mind shush and let me go to sleep…