- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2012
May I just vent here for a few minutes about my little black cloud today, my husband? He woke up and was depressed (again) about work. He isn’t sure what he wants to do today. I suggest we call his mom to meet her for lunch (most Sunday’s we’ll meet for lunch or dinner and we missed last week because we were out of town w/my family for father’s day). He says no, then he says yes. I confirm it’s really yes before making plans. We meet for lunch. He proceeds to spend 97% of the lunch quiet while his mom and I carry the conversation. He gets back, he sits on the couch napping/watching tv.
I clean the house and declutter, a project I’ve been working on. About two hours in, I’m in the midst of cleaning the microwave (nuking the vinegar and water). He suggests we go grocery shopping or get ice cream. I don’t really want ice cream and say so, but tell him I’ll join him out once I finish, but it won’t be in the next 5 minutes. Same with grocery shopping, I can’t make up a list before the car needs to be moved around back (two hour limit, but honestly, another 15 minutes won’t matter). He gets mad I’m stressing him out doing “things that don’t need to be done.” Does the microwave need to be cleaned that instant? No, but I’m in the middle of it and it hasn’t been cleaned in months. Darling Husband never thinks that the microwave/stove/tub/toliet etc etc etc needs to be cleaned so I get to do it all plus the cooking unless I can get him to “help me.” Yay for sharing 50/50. Now apparently even though I said not a word about helping, he’s mad I was doing it and also mad I wouldn’t *immediately* drop what I was doing when he emerged from his funk.
Now he’s a little black uncommunicative ball sitting on the couch watching damn sports again (I HATE that the Bruins made the playoffs as now every night that’s on, soccer world cup, red sox, golf…and we have one main room/one tv so it’s hard to escape it).
I am so tired of his black clouds, refusal to go to the doctor ever, internalizing when things at work happen, and taking it out me.