- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2009
I just needed a place to come vent…
A friend of mine and a cousin of mine are both pregnant… they are both 6 weeks along, and I am the one they are confiding in early, before they tell the world about their pregnancies. I am so happy for both of them.
I call them up, ask how they are feeling, sent them morning-sickness-packages, ask about doc appointments. I am TRULY TRULY TRULY so happy for both of them.
Hubs and I have been in a yes-no-yes-no game of when to start trying. December, he said he would be ready soon. NYE, he freaked out and said “no, not for a long time.” We spent a lot of time after that talking about our communication with each other, etc etc. We worked everything out, and he said he wanted to start trying. I was SO EXCITED because we had talked about it on several occassions and he seemed happy. He even wanted to start trying RIGHT THEN, but I told him that we should wait until the next cycle (Feb) so I was off the pill for 3 months.
So I made a comment about starting to try next week, and he had a freakout. Long story short, he said that he was NOT ready, didn’t know when he would be, was all freaked out about the situation, and that he needed a break from the baby-talk for a few months.
At the end of the day, I of course, want him to be happy about it.
I’m just disappointed. I am trying to be happy for my friends, but when they tell me they went to the first appointment and heard the heartbeat and were so emotional about it, or when they tell me their husbands are soooo excited for a baby and talk to the baby, etc… it just makes me a little sad! I want that! And of course, I would LOVE to be pregnant with them (a few weeks behind, of course!) to share the experience.
And perhaps I just got a bit too obsessed… I was already thinking ahead of WHEN we got pregnant, our possible due date (depending on what month it worked, etc)…
ANYWAY… just wanted to vent… thought some ladies here might understand!!