- 6 months ago
I made an account so that I could post this because I need to get it off my chest. Maybe I’m hoping that once I put it out there I’ll realize how childish or irrational I’m being? Or, maybe someone will get where I’m coming from. A little background: married for 5 months, together with Darling Husband for 5 years.
So, as the title says I’m jealous. I’m jealous of the way my husband talks about other women. And, it has nothing to do with complimenting another woman’s looks nor is it a romantic-jealousy. I’m jealous of the way she speaks about other’s women’s character/personality. Often when he’s talking about a coworker or even his sister he praises them on their work ethic, creativity, sense of humor, etc etc. He even compliments them directly. I guess I’m jealous because I’ve never seen him light up that way when he talks about me or expresses how impressed or proud he is of me. In fact, I can’t recall the last time he’s said “I’m proud of you”. Yea, maybe this is just me needing validation or whatever. But, after a while it feels kind of sh*tty. If I talk to him about something I’m insecure about, his response is usually very casual; along the lines of “aw don’t worry about it babe! *pat on back*”.
I know some people will say that I don’t know how he speaks of me when I’m not there. But, when I’ve met his friends or colleagues, none of them seem to know anything about me. When I finished college we had already been dating for about 2 years. He bought me a balloon and some flowers. When his sister graduated, he bought her flowers, attended her ceremony, and posted on social media expressing how proud he was and how she is the smartest and hardest working person he knows. I felt kind of lame and I know that’s pathetic. I work really hard at home, in school, at work, and in our marriage. I guess I just assume my husband would be rooting for me the most? Is that selfish? Probably.
I feel so ridiculous having these feelings, to the point that I’m embarassed to even bring it up to him. I feel so childish and hate that I’m actually hurt by it.
Please talk some sense into me 🙁