- 2 years ago
So, hi bees!
I posted last update coming to solution after me & my partner had discussion about commitment and next step.
It ended him saying I choose timetable for engagement, wedding and moving in together.
We had a pretty bad accident at home, with my child -putting everything else aside for awhile.
Today we had serious discussion again about this whole commitment thing.
I am starting to feel I need to move on and leave him. At the same time I feel really sad and worried.
In our discussion today I made it clear, it’s strange and awkward to make me do all timetables for US. It should be both together, looking forward to these moments.
I realized, I am the only one bringing marriage up. He never does, even though says “he wants to get married.” This bothers me enormously! And then when we talk, it’s me leading the speech – he just stays silent and looks annoyed.
Another thing bothering: I asked, why don’t we ever talk about serious issues and have deep conversations? Again, it’s always me talking first. He just keeps silent or talks about cars/bicycles/food, what doesn’t really interest me at all.
Also; he is free of job now for 3 days and I asked help for giving ride to my son to his hobby. (I don’t have a car and with bus it takes a lot of time). He just said “no.” No explanation, no reason. And all this time he is just sitting home and doing nothing.
All in all, I feel this is it. I am really feeling resentful and bitter towards him.
I think the most loving thing to myself is breaking up.
Thanks for your company, advices, support! I wish you all the best in life <3