- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2016
This is a straight up life vent as I’m feeling very overwhelmed and need to get it off my chest! Any words of encouragement are greatly appreciated.
So I am getting overwhelmed with my ongoing career indecision. Indecisiveness is my biggest weakness, and when it comes to careers it’s a major hindrance. I got a BA in psychology, thinking I would go on for a doctorate in counseling psychology. Since I finished my undergrad early, I felt like I was too young to straight into 7 more years of school and wanted to experience life first. I spent three years traveling and living in crazy places in the US and abroad. This didn’t help me narrow but only opened the world up more to me of the many possiblities. I wasn’t in a super academic mindset after these 3 years but wanted to get serious and go back to school to start a real career. I felt that instead of the big phd commitment, I could get an MSW which allows a person to do private practice psychotherapy (after exams and experience). The degree also fit in with my idealism and other values/interests. I wasn’t positive what exactly I wanted to do, so I liked that this degree was broad.
Now I finished this degree a year ago. I’ve pursued career counseling (which is ironic bc I NEED career counseling), earned a credential in that, and also have a job in employment counseling though with a population I do not want to work with long term. The job has positive points, but it pays very little. In fact, I continue to bartend (been in that industry for 10 years) and I make more on Fri and Sat night than I do in my whole week’s check. So, it’s not very sustainable to continue to work as much as I do, nor would I be advancing towards my goals to just earn the one income.
Though I know I’m being a little dramatic, I just feel like things are bleak and I made a big mistake with my degree. I realized that I’m not totally into straight up therapy/counseling and I’m not jumping for those jobs. And I’ve realized that I’m not prepared to make the sacrifices that working in nonprofit requires, and that earning a decent salary is important to me. I never felt like I *must* work in social work, but I’ve ended up there now. I feel like I need a new direction, quick, but still don’t know what it is.
I definitely want to make more money, and I feel like the way to do this is with a complete change in field. I think about higher education administration and student affairs, as I could harness my career counseling to that, however those jobs are competitive and I’m competing against ppl with specific degrees in that field, not to mention the pay starts in the ballpark I’m already in (maybe a little better depending). The same for human resources. On a totally different note, I’ve thought about occupational therapy. I basically feel like I should be 18 yo with my level of certainty on what I should do.
Add to that that I bounce around ideas of entrepreneurship, esp as I’ve worked in hospitality for 10 years that’s fueled ideas of opening a business for myself. Then I really start to feel all over the place with my various ideas in this category. I want to be certain the next time I invest a big chunk of time and money into my career and financial future, esp if that includes some type of loan, and I’m afraid I’ll never know what I want to do.
I strongly want to feel like I LOVE my job, but with no specific passion I wonder if I ever will. I know the world is full of possibility and people are out there doing jobs they love and making money doing it. I don’t want to settle, either on love or money. This is a lot of pressure, but really I just want to be happy with what I’m doing and make over 50k with the potential to make quite a bit more with more experience and success. I know these goals are possible!
If you’ve read this all you are an incredibly nice person and I appreciate you listening to my vent. Any thoughts, advice, or shared experiences are welcome!! xo