- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2014
My wedding is June 13th of this year. Less than 5 months away, yay! I have always maintained a fairly healthy weight, I am 27-years-old, 5’3 and normally hover around 120 lbs. I have always had a great relationship to food, never really restricting myself, but also eating nutritious meals and rarely eating fast food, soda etc.
I get a lot of exercise throughout the week due to my job, and regular walks/runs & stretching. Since starting to plan the wedding I have had a lot of stress in my life. Work stress, and family pressure etc. I have been naturally more strict about what I eat because I do want to look “the best I ever have” for my wedding day. Isn’t that what all brides want?
Anyhoo, because I have been so busy & stressed, my appetite really hasn’t been good. I will eat and then feel full very quickly-or just not have a will to eat. Its really strange. I don’t feel like I am consciously trying to not eat-or worse starving myself. I eat three square meals a day and eat dried fruit & nuts as snacks when I am hungry in between.
I have also been struggling with insomnia off & on for my whole life. Recently with all the wedding stuff on my mind it has been so much worse. I rarely get a full nights sleep. About a month ago I got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and fainted. I hit my head, and woke up on my bathroom floor.
I went to my doctor, who ran a bunch of tests. She told me I had lost 10lbs. I don’t even own a scale. Since then I have been trying hard to eat more, consume more calories & taking vitamins, drinking lots of water etc.
Today my boss asked me to talk with her. She told me that she was worried about me. She said that she herself had struggled with eating disorders/body issues. She basically asked me if that is what is going on, because she has noticed I have lost weight. I was so embarrassed, I know my face turned bright red. I told her I wasn’t consciously trying to avoid food, but have been more conscious of what I am eating (no processed crap etc.). I told her not to worry, but that I appreciated that she cares.
I don’t want to have this problem. I have been going through so much lately, between work, the wedding, family & at home stress sometimes I don’t feel like I have any time to think. Let alone my brain be able to register whether or not I am hungry…
I don’t know, am I crazy? Has anyone else gone through this before their wedding?