- 4 years ago
- Wedding: October 2016
Hey bees. I know ultimately DH and I need to make this decision together, despite what others may say, but I’d still like to get your opinions and experiences. This may get a little long.
I finally graduated from college in July with my Bachelor’s in Business Administration. It’s a great degree to have and after 6 years (I was a little lazy for a while), I’m so glad it’s over. I took a new job in February while I was still in school. Full time County Clerk for my hometown – everything I thought my dream job would be. I am essentially the HR Manager, Finance Director, Records Manager and a bunch of other small roles wrapped up into one. I was so excited to take it because I was finally starting a career in my field of study. The pay raise I was getting didn’t hurt, either. Before that, I had been a pharmacy tech for two years. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVED that job. But it just did not pay enough (and that was after two raises…). On and off during my last year as a pharmacy tech, I really considered starting over and doing pharmacy school. I would have had to go back and take all the undergrad classes (mainly sciences) and then, of course, the four years of pharmacy school. I VERY SERIOUSLY considered this for a long time because I genuinly loved what I did. I knew I would love being a pharmacist. However, I ultimately decided that I was too close to finishing my Business degree to give up on it. So I tried to push the thought out of my mind, but it was always lingered.
Fast forward to now. I’ve been in this job for 9 months and I hate it. I’m not happy. I hated it from week one honestly. But I just figured it was the learning curve and growing pains and that once I knew exactly what I was doing, I’d love it. So I stuck it out. I still hate it. And it’s not just one aspect that I don’t like. It’s every bit of it. I hate sitting in an office all day at a desk. I miss seeing customers and interacting with them on a daily basis. I HATE HATE HATE the finance director part of the job (which I thought I would love most). I miss being on my feet and using my hands to do my job. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I do a lot with my hands as far as typing goes and what-not, but it doesn’t feel the same. I miss the feeling of working in a team-like environment and being close with my co-workers. I essentially sit at a desk, alone, in my own office and talk to the other two people in my building maybe 3 times a day. I crave that fast-paced, customer-oriented environment.
So my dilemma. DH and I have been discussing me going back to school to do pharmacy. He is 100% supportive. But I’m just not so sure. I’m 25. If I started next semester, I’d be done with undergrad in December of 2018. And then I probably wouldn’t be able to start pharmacy school until the fall of the next year (they usually don’t start in the spring semester). So I wouldn’t be done with school until probably 2023. I’ll be 32. I know that’s not old, but it just seems so scary to start over in a completely new career field at 32. Not to mention the time and dedication it takes. Would that put a strain on our marriage? Would I ever get to see my husband? What if we had a child in the meantime? We’re not necessarily trying to have a baby anytime soon but it’s a possibility. I wouldn’t be able to have a job once I started grad school. Everyone I’ve ever talked to that went to pharmacy school has said that it’s impossible to maintain good grades with a job at the same time due to the time requirements. So we would have to live off of one income for 4 years. We would likely have to move. There is only one pharmacy school within driving distance and even it has multiple campus locations all over the state. So if I got in there, it wouldn’t be 100% certain that I’d even be on that campus. And last, but certainly not least, thanks to my parents saving up every single penny my entire life, I managed to make it through 6 years of college without ANY student debt. Whatsoever. None. And that would most certainly change if I went back to school. And it would change drastically.
TLDR: Very unhappy in my current career field. Considered going to pharmacy school (while I was a pharmacy tech) on and off for a while because I loved my job, but finally decided against it because I was too close to being done with a Business degree. Once I got in what I thought was my dream job, I realized very quickly that I wasn’t happy and I missed the pharmacy atmosphere. So now considering going back to school for pharmacy, but it will take about 6ish years, I’m married, might be starting a family in the next few years, will likely have to move and will rack up a ton of student debt (which I currently don’t have).
So is it worth it? I know I would be happy as a pharmacist. But is it really worth all that? Thoughts? Advice? Anyone ever been in the same boat?