Post # 1
Argh – We’ve got a stressful evening coming up with dinner that will include a couple we’re okay with, and another we’re not on the best terms with – and was trucking along at work and heard a co-worker 11 years younger than me planning her wedding. I’d guessed she was engaged with the ring on her ahnd and all, but figured she still ahd a few years for both her and hm to get out of school. Guess not everyone wants to wait a decade. 🙁 She’s nice and sweet, and if so many other people around me weren’t also making plans I’d probably be okay, but all the stupid bad feelings just hit again. Please, why can’t I just not care if I’m married? It’s on my mind day and night, no matter what I’m doing right now. Why does every reminder, from small things like writing my own name to hearing friends talk about wedding plans, have to hit so hard? This makes 8 couples around me engaged and on the way to the alter… but I’m just not good enough for it, talking about it just makes things worse, and tonight we have this stupid birthday dinner to go to, which is bad enough wihtout me trying not to be moepy, espsecially when the most recently engaged couple is the “good” set of dinner company, so I’d be reminded of my stupid feelings of lacking even without this. There. Siad. Taking a breath. Blah.
Post # 3
First of all ((HUGS)) I’m sorry you’re in the rough cycle of the waiting phase. I’ve been there, many a time, and was there just earlier this week, matter of fact. Today’s good, but that crappy phase could rear it’s ugly head any second. What set me off the other day, was, of all things, an ash from my cigarette fell on my ring finger on my left hand, just in the spot where a ring would go, and burned me just a smidge. OH, the irony. I was like, “You have GOT to be kidding me!?!?! Now inanimate objects are taunting me?”
Hang in there, and come directly to the Bee, do not pass Go, do not collect $200, go directly to the Bee when you feel the urge to explode!
Post # 4
((((hugs))) I know how you feel.
I WAS in a good waiting but it’s on the ugly side now. :(Just had a thought that it’s Nov. and the date for this TBD wedding may be gone b/c others have booked it. 🙁
I agree, keep coming to the bee to vent!
Post # 5
Sorry you are feeling bad today. Luckily for me there are not too many weddings around me. There is only one and she is my exact age so I’m actually really happy for her. Try to have a good time tonight and not let all these weddings get to you. I know exactly how you feel. I once meet my Boyfriend or Best Friend cousin in Dallas and I was really down because we were not married and his cousin and his wife had a beautiful family and I just felt so unhappy. Needless to say I was acting bad infront of some really nice people and regret it now.
Post # 6
Thanks, ladies. I’m so glad I stumbled onto this website, where people actaully understand what I’m feeling, and I don’t have to worry you guys will think I’m a jerk for feeling this way.