- 5 years ago
- Wedding: April 2019
How do you deal with it when something that you have been counting on and clinging to for over ten years gets pulled out from under you?
I have been seriously struggling with university, particularly with my anxiety and procrastination issues. I have wanted, and aimed, to be an accountant, or at least work in the accounting/finance industry, since doing Business Education in grade 10. Accounting was a subject I took in grade 11 & 12, loved and excelled at! I was, if not the top, close to the top of the students in my year doing Accounting.
So I knew it was something I wanted to do and knew I would do. So despite not getting in to an accounting degree right after high school and going to Arts instead, I planned on doing that still. I loved my English Lit & Writing degree, so I stayed, but went straight to the commerce/accounting studies as soon as I finished. In fact, I am pretty sure I started an undergraduate commerce degree in my last semester of my Arts degree. Then, when I realised I could do a graduate degree, I moved to that.
But I have been failing, this semester and the last semester that I was at uni. I have taken a break from uni before because of my health, I thought I was ready. Yet I still struggle. I am submitting a form this week to request withdrawal from the courses for this semester, it should get approved. My psychiatrist has worked with a few people before in similar situations needing to withdraw.
Talking to my parents, Fiance, and psychiatrist today, I am considering stopping university altogether. Yet, as my doctor today pointed out, I am clinging to this idea that I have to get an accounting degree like it’s the Holy Grail! I can’t let go of the idea that to work in the accounting/finance industry in a reasonable paying (enough to live on and build savings on) job, I need an accounting degree. That my current degree just won’t do, from what I can remember the jobs I have looked at seem to all require it. But it has been a belief I have had since high school.
I will be starting an online course for a certificate III in Business soon hopefully (I fill out the forms at my next appointment with the employment agency) that has a work placement component, which will be great, but I am not sure how much it can do for me career wise. A big thing is that I am great at work, I am highly valued at the charity I volunteer at and was at my last paying job, but I suck at studying. I just strongly feel that to get into the finance/accounting industry, which I still want to get into and work in, I need an accounting/finance degree!
Help bees, how did you cope with a big crisis or change like this?