- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
One day I feel all I want in this world is to be a mom, and the next day I want to move to Africa…
A little backstory:
I met my husband while working as a Photographer on a Cruise Ship. After months of waiting for his K-1 Visa to be approved, he arrived last May and we were married in June!
I work retail making 13$/hr and great benefits, with a probable promotion soon bringing me to 17$/hr. I feel this is decent money actually, considering that most other jobs around here, even ones that require a 2-4 year degree, start at only 11$-12$. My goal in this life is not to be rich, but to be happy…and right now, I am not either! Maybe it’s the ‘I used to work on a Cruise Ship and wake up on different islands every morning’ inside me talking, but I’m bored…and until the perfect, fulfilling opportunity that I’m waiting for hits me in the face, I’m stuck here. 🙁
When I think about my future, the only thing I know 100% that I want to be is a Mom! As far as a career goes, I just don’t know what I want to do! I am a motivated, goal oriented person – and if I knew what I wanted, I would go for it…but I just don’t know, and it’s driving me (and my husband) crazy! I want to do something important, something fulfilling…not feel like I’m wasting my days away working a monotonous, boring job. My husband wants to go to school for IT, which will *hopefully* eventually bring in a decent amount of money…at which time I will be a stay at home mom/possibly open a home daycare center/eventually work with an orphanage in my DH’s country?
But that doesn’t fix the now…I can’t help scouring the internet everyday in search of international volunteer programs, etc… It doesn’t help that I am not religious, and many programs ‘require’ you to follow a certain faith (which I wouldn’t mind, I just want to do something important, but they do!) And then I realize that it is important for us to start building a life here, with real careers, and a home. I (like most of you other Newlyweds) am going through hardcore baby craving right now! 🙂 But, we are planning to at least wait until Darling Husband finishes college.
‘Why don’t any of my friends feel this way?’ I guess to me life should be an adventure; traveling, helping people and spreading love! But when my friends are satisfied with the daily grind, 9-5, or whatever it is they do…it boggles my mind! Maybe I just need to make a few more friends, but I really feel like I’m the only one feeling this way…which I suppose is the point of this post…
I guess I’m not sure exactly what I’m looking for here…I just recently found this website and instantly became addicted! A lot of you ladies sound like you really know what you’re talking about, so I figured ‘Hey, maybe they have some good advice for me!’ 🙂
So, thanks for reading all these thoughts that go through my head daily! (I am a worrier, planner, and over thinker and I even stress myself out!)…I appreciate any advice, career/volunteer ideas, or even just nice words and thoughts! Gracias! 🙂