- 7 years ago
- Wedding: May 2009
I am having a minor freakout today.
Quick backstory- I’ve been ready to start TTC for a while. Hubs finally thought we should start trying in Feb, and then over NYE, he made a few comments and said he was no where near ready. I got upset & realized we REALLY need to improve our communication skills. For the past three weeks, we have been having long heart to heart conversations. We have been talking about EVERYTHING and he wants to start trying in Feb! Actually, one night he said that he was fully ready and wanted to start THAT NIGHT, but I didn’t want it to be a moment of passion thing, so I told him we had to wait until the next cycle… LOL! Romantic, I know.
Fastforward… we are now going to start trying in Feb… eek… that’s the first time I’ve admitted that.
However, now I am FREAKED OUT! I know that I want this, I know I want to be pregnant, and I KNOW I am ready for a baby. I am just freaking out that it is soooo much and soooo permanent… what if we AREN’T ready for a baby? (I know you’ll never be fully ready…)
And to top it off, the hubs thinks we should move sometime this year to a bigger house. We have a 3/2 right now, but we both agree that this was a starter home, and that we’d like to raise our kids in a bigger house with a pool and a yard- probably a 4/3. I agree with that, but we were talking last night to a few people in real estate, and they said that if we are thinking of making a move, that we should do it this year while interest rates will remain lower. So now we are talking about moving… we are thinking about school districts and down payments and whether to rent or sell our house…
My head is spinning and I’m so nervous! It just seems like SO MUCH.
We are doing well with our finances- we are both employed, we have a lot of savings, etc. We both have excellent credit scores, no debt other than a house and one car being leased. But I’m scared!!
I know it’s just so much at once. I know “technically” we don’t have to move, and we could have a baby in this house, but it wouldn’t be ideal and we need to make a smart financial decision. We could wait a few years, but then the housing market might not be beneficial to us…
Has anyone had a freakout like this and felt totally overwhelmed? I just thought we’d get pregnant, BE pregnant and have a baby… Instead, there is so much to think about…