Post # 1
Hello. I haven’t been around in a while. I did post about being worried after my first ultrasound when the baby measured a week behind my dates and had a slow-ish heartbeat. I spent 10 days trying to force myself to be positive, and it worked, and then, we lost the baby.
Last Sunday I had some spotting, nothing major, but because I was already worried we went to the ER. It was a little country hospital so they didn’t have u/s techs after hours. The doctor tried her hand at the u/s machine and said she thought she saw a baby with a hb around 160. She checked my cervix and it was closed. We left feeling very positive.
Monday morning we went to the u/s clinic only to be told that there was no HB and baby only measured 6w2d, a growth of 1 day over 10 days. We were diagnosed with a missed miscarriage. We went to see my family doctor and she offered 3 options: D&C, medically induced “abortion”, or wait it out. I chose the misoprostol and took it Monday night after my mom flew in from across the country.
Tuesday was hard but I did feel like I probably passed the sac.
Today is 1 week and a day, and it’s still uncomfortable physically which is so hard because it’s a constant reminder of what’s happened. I go for an u/s on Friday to see if I have passed everything. I’m just praying to God it’s gone and I won’t need a D&C.
I just thought people might be wondering where I went.
I’ll be back again once we’re able to TTC again.
Post # 3
@SSLM: I’m sorry that this happened to you. Huge hugs. I know what it’s like if you need someone to talk to.
Post # 4
So sorry abt ur loss! ((HUGS))
Post # 5
I’m so sorry for your loss. Big hugs! it’s wonderful that you have your mom there for extra emotional support.
Post # 6
((hugs)) I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your DH.
Post # 7
I’m so sorry for your loss 🙁
Post # 10
I am so very sorry for your loss:( I have been checking your user name to see your post history because I was worried about you. I had a bad feeling because you hadn’t posted in a while. I am SO SORRY for what you are going through. I can’t imagine getting as far along as you and having to go through this. My losses were very early, and they were life-altering. PM me if you need to talk. I am so so sorry:(
Post # 11
I’m really sorry to hear this. Wishing you the best with healing. 🙁
Post # 12
I’m so sorry : (. I hope we can support you through this.
Post # 13
I am so sorry sweetie! I know EXACTLY what you are going through because the same exact thing just about it, happened to me. 🙁 At 8 weeks the baby was measuring 6 weeks with a low HB. Then a week later I started bleeding. My cervix was still closed but the baby had no HB. So we waited it out & a few days later I passed everything. 🙁
It takes time to heal. I can never promise any woman who has MC that she will be 100% over it one day. But I do know that I am 100% okay & I am healed. Its been a little over a year (MC in January 2011.) Something that helped my husband & I was going on our estimated due date & letting balloons go & watching them fly away to show remembrance of our unborn baby. Even then I only shed a few tears & actually smiled just looking at how far we had got & great it felt to not hurt so much anymore over it. What I am trying to say is I promise over time it does get better! It may not seem like it now (I know I was there.) I couldn’t get off the couch, my eyes was LITERALLY swelled from crying, I couldn’t hardly eat, I couldn’t stop myself from breaking down when seeing a woman hold a baby on tv, I couldn’t walk by baby aisles. But over time I could. Over time it got better & it will get better for you! Just do what you need to do to heal. Cry, cry so much it hurts. Cry so much you can’t cry anymore. Scream if you must. Just take time to heal & it will happen. I wish you & your husband the best with TTC next time sweetie!
Post # 14
Thanks for updating us… I was worried about you. I am terribly sorry for your loss. I know how much it hurts, having had a mc in February. I’m so glad your mom is there to help support you. PM any of us if you need to chat, we’re here to help you get through this.
Post # 15
Very very sorry for you loss. Your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Post # 16
I am so very sorry for your loss.