- 5 years ago
- Wedding: January 2014
If some of the bees read my previous posts, then this is nothing new to add. I’ve been a little sad the past few weeks, all started when after asking my boyfriend (8 years relationship) when was he planning to propose, I received a very unexpected answer: “what? I didn’t even thought of that. We are too young (both 25)!”.
He discussed seriously the next day and he said he wanted to get more settled, change his job (he is been activelly looking but so far no luck) and for me to finish my degree (will happen this summer) and find a job too. This makes perfect sense, you know? I agree, we need to be more settle to get married, but all I wanted was to get engaged.
Everybody knows it would be at least 1.5 years or so before the big day, so hopefully things will be more settled by then and if they are not we could postpone if necessary.
Am I being silly?
I mean, we are young, but we have been together for so long and we already live together and we get along just fine, why doesn’t he see my point? Why does he have to be all logical? I just have that e-ring finger itch…
I told him that I wanted to feel more secure with him and he was all offended and responded with : “You don’t feel safe? what reasons do I ever gave you for you not to feel safe with me?”
I feel sad around him, sometimes, just because of this, Am I being a child? 🙁 I have a great man, he treats me right and is by my side in everything… I wish I could forget about this!
I never mentioned marriage issue again since that day. Some nights he just curls up around me and says that he wants to find a jobs soon and change his current one (which he hates) so “things can move on” and I don’t really know what he mean with that, I don’t ask either since I want to stay out of the topic, but well… sorry for the long post. I just need some venting now and then **