- 7 years ago
- Wedding: June 2014
I am in a total rut. I try to get out of it, and lately when I do eat good for most of the day, if I screw up I belittle myself over it. My weakness is at night, when I have no one to really talk to.
Tomorrow I’m going to the gym, and I’m just looking for some online friends for encouragement. I need to loose at least thirty pounds by late August. I know it can be done, but I have to really crack down and just do it. Today I was bad with eating, which frustrates me since I know I have to loose that much weight, and yet I just ate whatever without much regard until I sat down just now and felt ashamed over how I did today, and felt even worse after having a two hour conversation with my boyfriend, who I have told that I’m going to loose weight.
A part of me feels like if I don’t loose some weight (close to 30) then I’m just showing him I don’t follow through with what I say. I said the last time I’d loose 30 pounds, I lost five in like the five months we were apart. =
I’m pretty much alone in this, my family while they are supportive, they make it HARD to avoid bad foods. See, I still live at home (long story…) and the food brought in here is really just bad. I think if a dietician came here they’d chuck about 90% of the food in our pantry right now.
Anyway, sorry to ramble but what I’m seeking is just other women who are struggling with weight loss. Just looking for some buddies who can relate, and who that maybe even I can provide comforting, encouraging words to. Thanks.