- 6 years ago
- Wedding: July 2011
Feeling a little bit down right now. I think I just want to sympathize with someone in my situation or get advice from someone who’s been there. I’m told talking about my feelings is supposed to help… haven’t tried it much before so here goes nothin!
My husband and I have put building our home on the back burner as of a couple years ago. We did have somewhere to build and could have owned the land but came to the consensus that it was too far away from where we both worked (a little over an hour) and gave it up to family. A house has since been built there and its kind of bitter sweet because we’re so happy for our family that are enjoying their new home now but sometimes its hard looking up there and knowing that could have been us. We wouldn’t change our decisions if we could but its still quite hard to see sometimes. We both know we made the right choice by looking closer to work but building a home there would have been much less expensive than the area we want to live in.
I just graduated with a university degree and got a temporary job that has a finite timeline as of right now. I might get a permanent position at some point but currently, my income would be useless for us to get a good mortgage for what we need. I don’t feel like we’re in a big rush but we are both just dreaming of owning a home and we want it so badly. Neither of us can stop looking at homes for sale even though we don’t even have a pre approval.
The place we want to build now will be starting a new phase so soon and I just haven’t accepted the fact that we probably won’t get to be in on that phase. That would push our plans even further back since we’d have to wait for them to begin yet ANOTHER phase before we own a home there. It feels so close but we know it’s not. Its just a bummer for me and I wish I could stop thinking about it but I can’t! I was hoping telling someone, anyone, would help me get over it for a little while.
Feelings sharing over for now. Thank you if you even had the time to glance through that novel I just wrote!
Yeah…. I know everyone has their own (probably bigger) problems and re-reading this now makes me feel petty. Uh oh.