OMG! I thought I was the only one dealing with this in such a short period of time!!
We got engaged in January 2011.
About 6 months later, my fiance started a new job.
I started a new job around the same time, but it only lasted for a month because it was HORRIBLE!!! (it was a doctor’s office and they were committing all sorts of HIPPA violations).
The very next day I got a new job at a plumbing and heating company and was there for 11 months, but the hours were inconsistent, so I started job hunting again.
In June 2012 got hired at a HUGE, prestigious company making WAY more money than I ever expected to in my life. I was a receptionist. About a month after I was hired, the CEO’s executive assistant quit suddenly (b/c the CEO was a total arrogant jack ass) and they asked ME to fill in for her. They didn’t care that I had no experience and barely knew anything about the company, they just forced me into it. And they were planning this big, giant event with delgates from Russia and I was in WAY over my head. But I did everything that was asked of me …. and the day after the delgates left, they fired me because “I wasn’t right for the job.” Um, that’s because I was hired as a receptionist, NOT an executive assistant!!
So I was on unemployment for 3 months (HORRIBLE!! HORRIBLE!! I was so depresed. They literally fired me 12 months before my wedding. I was borderline suicidal).
But I got a new job in December 2012. I’m still there (it was temp-to-hire and they just hired me on full time/perm) but it’s HARD and stressful. lol
In February 2013, we found a house we loved, made an offer, and they accepted it! YAY!
We just got the formal loan approval and are now in the process of tying up loose ends and stuff. Closing is in mid-April.
In the midst of all this job/house stuff, our wedding is 6 months away!!!
Some days I feel like I’m losing my mind. I cry almost every day. Sometimes they’re happy tears, sometimes they’re sad, sometimes they’re scared tears. lol
It is REALLY hard. I seriously think the only time I’ve ever been this stressed out was when I thought my mom was going to die.
It sounds horrible to say that because this should be a happy time in my life, and overall, it is, but it’s also horribly stressful and scary.
I am just trying to breathe. Deep breaths. A lot.
And focus on the positive. And try not to let fear of what COULD go wrong get in the way of what IS going right.
I am just keeping my eyes on the prize.
My fiance is SO incredibly patient and supportive so that helps a ton. And my parents and friends/BMs are being very supportive too.
I try to think about the fact that I’ve been through so much in such a short period and I’m still hanging in there so ….. fingers crossed!!!