- 5 years ago
- Wedding: January 2015
I’ve been MIA for about 8 months, the reason being that my now ex-FI broke (who I shall refer to as C) off our wedding 3 weeks before we were due to wed. I don’t particularly want to go into the reasons – because as it turns out they are things deeply imbedded in C’s soul…. and while it was a shock after 12 years together to discover that we are better off apart, I have come to terms with the fact that he never wanted what I wanted… and just as I wouldn’t consider not getting married or not having children in my future, C cannot,and should not want marriage or children just to make me happy….
I’ve been seeing someone (G) for about 3 months now, and while I obviously still miss C, I do love the time I spend with G, and am learning how easy it is to be in an equal loving relationship with someone who clearly wants the same things as me. And while I wouldn’t want to be back in a relationship with C, and am incredibly happy with G right now….. and while I don’t feel like I want to rush through things with G, I just feel it’s difficult sometimes, with regards to not knowing each other’s little ways well, and not having a history yet, and not really sure where we will be in a month, or 6, or a year from now. Maybe it was because I was with C for so long, and can’t really remember what it was like in the early stages.
The reason I came back here was to answer a PM someone sent me, and since being here and reading the boards it has made me really miss all the DIYing I did for C and my wedding…. and the time I spent on here chatting with everyone…. and the feeling like I knew where my life was heading (even though in hindsight I clearly didn’t!!)
But I was just wondering…. have any other bees been through a breakup of an engagement, and how did you get through? I know the feelings I have are probably quite normal, and I know every day is precious…. but I could do with some support?
Thanks in advance x