@Lillyrose: I’ve seen some of your earlier posts about this, so I know you’ve been worrying for awhile!
Ok, #1 you are probably not infertile:
- 30 percent get pregnant the first cycle (about one month)
- 59 percent get pregnant within three cycles (about three months)
- 80 percent get pregnant within six cycles (about six months)
- 85 percent get pregnant within 12 cycles (about one year)
It is easy to call worries or anxiety “intuition” to make it seem more legit, but calling it intuition doesn’t make it true. It sounds like you have regular periods and that you confirmed your ovulation by charting and OPK. Sounds very promising, nothing to worry about there.
Ok, #2- maybe you are right and you will have trouble conceiving. If so, stressing out about it won’t change that. It make take you over six months or close to a year. That doesn’t mean that you are infertile- it just means you aren’t one of that lucky 30 percent that got it the first cycle. Now say you actually are ‘infertile.’ There are many options available, and many couples that wouldn’t be able to have kids even 20 years ago are now able to have multiple babies. There is Clomid, IUI, and IVF, etc. So even if you are ‘infertile,’ that certainly doesn’t mean you won’t be able to get pregnant and have a baby, or babies!
It sounds like you a “worrier.” That’s ok, I can be a little bit of a worrier sometimes, too; we all can be. I think you should spend some of your energy learning how to deal with anxiety and the unknown better. Being able to live in the present and not stress out about things is a more enjoyable way to go through life, I think. I betting other Bees have some good advice here. I’d try yoga, exercising outside in pleasant surroundings, meditating/mindfulness, massage therapy…..
Anyways, best of luck to you on TTC, I’m betting it will happen for you soon! I’m on my third cycle and I know how you feel. I keep reminding myself that a close friend of mine (who I totally look up to, she is such a cool person and a total badass, super healthy, incredible athlete, smart, fearless, adventurous) took six months to conceive her baby. She said she couldn’t believe it when her period arrived each month. It makes me feel better to know that everyone that doesn’t conceive on their first cycle goes through this- you’re not alone!