- 8 years ago
- Wedding: July 2011
i put this under emotional because it kinda is, and well, i suppose i didn’t kno what other category it could fall under….i’m not crying or devastated because he is not my flesh and blood (i really don’t mean that to sound cold-hearted) but i am saddened and actually a little worried….
before i continue, i just want to point out, that i do feel terrible that my boss and his family got this news so i don’t want this post to sound as if i’m being inconsiderate or whatnot…
i’m worried about the firm, about the future, about what may or may not happen….see, i’ve worked here for 6 yrs now….my boss has been a mentor to me, he often views me as one of his own daughters…i wouldnt say we are so close as to share a father/daughter type bond but there is a bond there nonetheless….i know of his father enough to be deeply saddened at the thought of him passing….now i know cancer does not always equal death but the way my boss mentioned it, he made it seem like ‘its come to that time’ (as he put it)…..
i’m going thru a lot of things right now in my personal life and it makes me feel guilty and ashamed a bit to think selfishly but i cant help wonder how it will affect my job if my boss’s father passes ……i kno he will be devastated to no end, and i’m not really sure if he will be able to separate himself enough to come to work and run a business…..this is his father after all….. and the firm is so small, he is the only architect here and all the work needs to be approved by him before being sent out and delivered…..
i feel bad for thinking this way….. 🙁 but i am concerned….not only of this but of him and his father and his family…..
guess i’m just looking for support even though he is not my relative, it will affect my life as well….