- 6 years ago
I am very vain (It’s who I am, I’ve accepted it, moving on. LOL!) In 2005 I was diagnosed with SLE and since then my body has gone through a lot of changes. I have gained a quite a bit of weight because of the drugs I have had to take and I have also developed a serious allergy to the sun (so an outdoor wedding in the spring/summer is out of the question :-P). Despite all of that I still find myself to be quite beautiful, but I do have one weakness… My hair. I have naturally thick hair and it has always been long, but I have had episodes where my hair has fallen out. I also have a Lupus Hairline and it is slowly but surely becoming more and more visible. In November 2012 I lost about 7 inches of hair and I was devastated, but I didn’t waste any time geting my hair back to what it was and so far so very very good :-).
Sorry the picture is so big! LOL! My hair has grown a lot and I couldn’t be happier, but I’m scared that I will end up losing it again. I have always wanted my hair to be long for my wedding, but with the stress of planning and life in general I’m worried that I will have another major flare and my hair won’t be healthy for the big day. I know it’s silly to be worried about my hair when there are other things that can happen that are much worse than going bald, but my hair is where my overall health shows the most and if my hair looks sick the the rest of me will look sick too.
I guess all I can do is take it one day at a time and handle whatever comes, as it comes. The Mr. says that he thinks I’m beautiful with or without hair and he know that no matter what I will be beautiful on our wedding day and I have to admit, that sets my mind at ease <3.