- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2014
Other than introducing myself, this is my first time posting in the waiting boards, I usually just lurk. I don’t know what I plan to accomplish by posting this, I just need to vent a little bit I think and get it off my chest! It’ll probably end up tl;dr.
One of my friends has been hinting to me for about a month now that I may be getting a Christmas proposal. To me, that would be so magical and perfect. Christmas is my absolute favorite holiday, and it’s always such a happy, magical time for me. My Dad is the king of Christmas Spirit and that definitely got passed down to me. SO on the other hand kind of dislikes Christmas.
We were supposed to be in a house together by Christmas. Some things that were out of anybody’s control came up and we accepted that it wouldn’t be happening, and thought we could at least spend the night together there, even if we weren’t moved in. We were soo close to having that happen (my Mom owns the house), but ran into some more MAJOR problems with it last week that will prevent us from being able to even stay there for Christmas. As I said, our plan was to spend Christmas Eve there together, since either way, we would not be moved in by then. That was fine, and exciting. We’ve been together for 7 years and this would be our first Christmas outside of our parents houses. Now we can not even stay there for a while, and will not be having a more personal Christmas together. SO feels (or at least did a little while back) that he can not propose while he lives with his parents (we are 25, living with both of our parents for financial reasons right now until we can be in the house together), because they would not take it seriously. I had thought that if we were so close to being moved in, that we could stay there for nights at a time while things got ready, it would happen and he would feel they would take it seriously (but come on, we’ve been together for SEVEN YEARS.. how is that not serious?).
But like I said, my friend had been hinting at it, and I was getting REALLY excited! I have my nails done, had (/have) an outfit picked out… Really, a Christmas proposal would be my “dream” proposal. But SO has been very down lately, not excited at all for Christmas, and has said “I hope you don’t think what I got you for Christmas is stupid”. Now I feel like it 100% is not happening right now. I get it, and understand (and okay, maybe a tiny bit of me is still hoping that yes, it will happen… I’m trying to let that go though so I don’t end up disappointed), but it’s just a bummer for me today!
I’ve had a lot of hard times lately and with the house issues going on, this just feels like the straw on the camel’s back tonight.
I’m trying to look on the bright side. I know it will be coming… Eventually, LOL. I’m hoping tomorrow will be easier on me emotionally, and I will be more into the Christmas Spirit than I am right now.
Anyways, I just had to get that out, and felt like this would be a good place to do it. Thanks for listening and being here for me to do that! I hope you all are having better waiting days than I did today.