- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2010
I am a long time Bee who hasn’t been so active lately. I have PCOS and have been battling infertility for the past 2.5 years. I was active on the TTC boards early on but it soon got too painful and instead of discussing my failures I preferred to just ignore them and move on with my life. I still read the TTC boards regularly but did not post about my struggles. I apologize in advance for how long this is… but there is a happy ending!
Our journey to conception started in June 2011. At first my RE wanted to see how my body would react to going off the pill for four months. That was a long four months of nothing as I did not have a period after my withdrawl bleed in June. In September, my RE put me on metformin to see if that would regulate my cyle. 4 months later still no natural period.
At this point Darling Husband and I take a break. The RE wanted us to start our journey with fertility drugs and if I got pregnant soon afterwards I would be giving birth while completing my PhD and starting a new academic job.
In the spring we decided it was time to start fertility treatments. 4 cycles of clomid… no ovulation. 3 unmonitored cycles of Femara… no ovulation. During the 3 unmonitored cycles we moved to the US and obviously with the move we changed RE’s. Once I found my new RE, she did one more cycle of femara to monitor me and find out what was going on. Once again, little response and no ovulation.
This brings us to Fall 2013 and years of disapointment and frustration. In October, I started my first combined cycle of Femara with injectables (Menapur). Finally, my body responded the way it was supposed to and I had a dominant follicle in each ovary; however, the cycle was going long and I didn’t trigger (Novarell) until CD17. Darling Husband and I had timed intercourse as directed. Around 12DPO I started spotting, the spotting continued for about 6 days before I had full flow. On the 6th day (December 3rd) I had a CD2 ultrasound and bloodwork. Although, I didn’t get pregnant I took this cycle as a BIG WIN because the US confirmed ovulation. This was the first time I ovulated in my whole entire life!!!!! After years of failures, I was starting to feel optomistic about my TTC journey.
Darling Husband and I wanted to capitilize on the progress we had this cycle and we knew that the concoction of meds I took actually workd so we wanted to try again right away. This cycle my body responded much better to the meds and by CD10 I had a 17mm follicle on the left and two 15s on the right. My RE wanted to give the right follicles a bit more time so I triggered on the morning of CD12. We BD’d at 12 and 36hrs post trigger. From 8DPO to 10DPO I was having waves of nausea, was sensitive to smells, had abdominal cramping, and had very little appetite… I thought that this was finally my month! On the morning of CD12 (Dec. 27th) I was schedule to go to the RE for a blood test, but I woke up to bright red bleeding and a BFN. My hopes were squashed!
I go to the RE, they take my blood and I say I want a CD1 US so that we can start another cycle. When I remove my tampon for the US I notice the bleeding had stopped, but didn’t think much of it. During the US the RE said “Your lining is very generous, this is how it looks in early pregnancy”, at this point I am so upset I am holding back tears… why would she say this to me when she knows I am not? I told her about the bleeding and the BFN. She said she wanted me to come back for another US in 4 days because I had a couple left over follicles on the right that may cause a problem with my period and would cause complications with the next cycle. She told me she would call to confirm this afternoon after she received my bloodwork back with my estradiol levels.
The nurses at my RE ALWAYS call me back at around 1pm with my bloodwork results. At 4pm I call the office to get my results. She apologizes and says she has paged the doctor and will get back to me as soon as possible. Weird… but ok! 45 minutes later I get the call, we had family over so I went into our bedroom to be alone. The nurse apologized for the delay and then said “but I have good news”. Instantly, I am in tears and I squeak out “Really?” She tells me my HCG is 17 and it is still really early and so I need to come back on Dec 31st to get my HCG checked again.
At this point I am in shock and can.not. stop crying. I text my Darling Husband who is in the other room to come to the bedroom. He comes into the bedroom, sees my crying mess of a self and immediately is concerned (I told him that morning my period started so he definitely didn’t suspect pregnancy). I told him I am pregnant and he said “What?” “How?” “What happened?” all through tears. We hugged, kissed, cried and laughed for about 15 minutes.
All weekend I was in shock and didn’t let myself believe it was true. I wasn’t going to get excited until I saw that my HCG is doubling the way it should. And to add to my nervousness my HPTs were still taking 10 minutes to show a faint line.
Yesterday, I decided that I would stop taking HPTs and just wait for my blood test results. I got my blood taken at 8am this morning and waited for the results… today was a long day. At 1:30pm I got the call… My HCG is 174, which is great! It is doubling every 28 hours!
I am PREGNANT!
Even though I am still in shock, I am now allowing myself to get excited. I think this is finally it for me after a long and tired journey.
I wanted to write this to give other bees battling fertility hope even though I know they feel hopeless. It gave me hope when Bee’s told their story of getting through their long-term fertility struggles successfully and I hope this story can do the same for someone!
Thank you to @heathaah for sharing her story and being there when I needed someone to listen to my story.
Wishing the TTC 2years+ Bees the best of luck,