- 6 years ago
This is a tough one fellow bees and in all honesty it is eating me up inside although i dont care to admit it.
When i read about other girls ideas and plans for thier father/daughter dance it breaks my heart…
My Father is not invited to my wedding.
He left us when i was 6 yearss old and we had a telephone relationship most of my life. when i was 17 i moved States to live with him… He was very mean to me and i left, a shadow of the girl i was when i got there! For many years i struggled with my self esteem and my relationships with men were mostly volatile because i did not believe i deserved anything more because my Father told me i didnt!
I am now 31, a loving Mother, and i am madly in love with a man that would never put me down, he lifts me so high i have to look down to see Heaven! The love of my life, whom i am marrying next July! My 9 year old son will walk me down the aisle, an honour he is taking very seriously and is so excited about!
But then there’s THAT dance! The dance that will not exist at my wedding.
On the surface, i pretend its ok. I tell myself that My Father doesnt deserve to hold me and be proud of who i have become because i did it all myself, despite his rejection. But a girl’s Daddy is the first man she loves, and deep down it hurts so bad that he couldnt love me the way i needed him to, and that on my special day, i have to be different to everyone else because my father/daughter dance will be missing.
Please bees, if you have any suggestions or ideas on how i can create my own tradition to fill this emptiness i am feeling regarding what should be a very beautiful moment on my wedding day, please share them with me. Thank you xx