- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2008 - Toronto, ON
This is not wedding related as I got married over 5 years ago but I find it difficult at times to talk about what is going on in my personal life so I thought I would come on here. My mom was sick since the summer and got regular check ups and even chest x-rays because she is in her 60’s and a smoker and everything seemed fine except the last x-ray she just in September showed a spot on one of her lungs! 🙁 She found out in October it for sure was lung cancer and stage 4 at that! She is not able to get surgery it has spread to her bones and she is too weak for chemo! She has had radiation treatments and 2 blood transfusions to try to make her strong enough for chemo but it didn’t work! 🙁 I used to tell my mom about all the fights my Darling Husband had and before she found out she had cancer she got involved in a yelling match with my Darling Husband over the phone and now she hates him! He is not allowed to come over, for Christmas we had to spend it seperately . I regret confiding in my mom now and getting her involved and I know if she wasn’t sick she and him would be ok! She even said to me make sure your husband doesn’t come to her funeral! This is all too much for me. I do not like to argue with her, I just want her to be at piece. I go there everyday, so I hardly see him anymore and I have taken a leave of absence from work to care for her, cuz my dad has a business to run! She can no longer walk, she needs help getting to the bathroom, tomorrow she is getting a hospital bed though put in my parents’ house. She also has no appetite and she’s delusion, it’s so hard to see my mom this way! I am trying to stay strong, it’s just so hard. By the way I am 34 so I am not too young, but I still find this extremely hard. I don’t think she has much longer! 🙁 For those of you who lost a parent, how did you cope, especially when they had a terminal disease and having to watch your loved one suffer!