- 6 years ago
I don’t know any has been following me, but my mom has been fighting pancreatic cancer thsee past 15 months.
god, she is amazing, beautiful, amazing and so so very kind and always thinking of others….
She amazingly made my wedding and I am so, so very thankful for that.
She was doing okay for the last little while, and we even had a 12 hour day with my husband, me, my dad and mom at african lion safari …she had the best day! She loves love taking pictures(I got that from her) and was so excited at her photos ! Brought tears to my eyes at how much fun she had…so amazing to watch her having an amazing day, will be in my memory forever…seriously forever.
well she went down hill quick in the last 5 days, scary,quick and I was with her and my dad early evening yesterday and we thought we lost her there for a little while. We called 911 and they took her to the hospital. Basically, it’s just the cancer progressing and she had a choice to stay at the hospital or come home to die at home and she choice home. My sister, mem my husband when he’s not working, my brother and dad, we have been her all the time, making sure she is comfortable.
we don’t know how long left we have with her but we know it’s not very long…..
this just kills me inside, because she is such a good person…seriously everyone says they have never met such a kind, deserving, more selfless person than my mom, always looking out for everyone else but herself….I just love her so goddamn much ….she is truly the rock in the family, she is the glue that holds us all together…she truly is my best friend, we are so alike, do so much together, has made me the person I am together and constantly makes me better….
she is the rock for my dad, pushing him through his over 200 operations he has had, and he is going to be so lost without her and we are so worried about him too..so worried…my husband and I are moving in to help be there for my mom and my dad….we know he won’t be able to be good on his own and our whole family is so worried about him as well since he and my mom did everything together, soul mates, and seriously, have never seen 2 more people in love…..she was there for him for everything and he for her and I am just so worried what he will be like….he is so much in denial right now, it hurts my heart so much.
it’s so hard to think she won’t be here….I honestly don’t know how we will live without her …I can’t think/comprehend that we will go on and live in our future, without her laughter and smiles with us…I have never ever met a person like her…I can’t think, breathe with thinking of life and to go on without her….I am being strong for her, for my dad, for my family…my husband has been amazing through this but it’s just so hard to think of the future and being able to go on without her….
she is so good why did god/whoever is out, have to take her away?