- 10 years ago
- Wedding: July 2010
So Just needed to vent! I feel like everyone involved in my wedding is hearing all my stress and all the extra drama that I never could have foreseen and are getting more than tired of it. I mean planning a wedding with four kids running around has been hard enough but I have had ALOT of extra problems. First of all my mother has been sick for 2 years now in and out of the hospital so I havent been able to experience anything with her, I had a venue cancel on me, My Maid/Matron of Honor basically back out, met up with her left feeling good but she is acting the same again already, My fiance was laid off could not get unemployment so we spent our wedding savings on the mortgage and all that so now that he is back to work we are playing catch up BIG time! My Father-In-Law backed out on the money he was going to give us, everything has just been a TOTAL problem. I have managed to keep a smile on my face and remember what is really important here.
But I am having a hard problem now….I feel like it is all just adding and I am about to Blow! I have asked my mother to walk me down the aisle with my father because it means alot to me to have her there with me. I also asked my grandmother to walk my two daughters down the aisle b/c they are small 1 and 3. On Tuesday I asked them if Sunday would be a good day to go get dresses with me. They asked what I was thinking and I told them since my Bm’s dresses are T length champagne with a black overlay and my MOL is plus size i thought black would be perfect. Something simple,elegant, and timeless. (my theme is victorian elegance…..just a very timeless romantic look overall I am trying to acheive) Well the NEXT day they go shopping WITHOUT me!!! My mother calls me telling me she found the dress but has to go to another store thurday(yesterday) for her size. But that the dress was on caché’s website and to look it up. I did look it up….HATE IT!! she would not take my phone calls! Yesterday I called her first thing in the morning she was gone! My sister and I had been talking about it all day….the dress is just WAY to much it is a mermaid style…has rouching on the sides…..a split bust….a bow under the bust….and tulle coming out the top of the dress. She is walking down the isle next to me I feel like everyone is going to be looking at her dress! Well about 5pm last night while talking to my sister onthe phone my mom beeped in…..My sister said she was going to take the call and call me back but that she was going to mention to her it was not appropriate to walk me down the aisle in at 3:30 in the afternoon at an outdoor ceremony on the water. Well that went over like a fart in church! My mom lost it! She went on to say that she has been very sick is fighting for her life and this is about her not anyone elseand then hung up the phone and proceeded to throw it across the room, Mother of the Bridezilla. I feel awful I dont even know what to do! I dont want my mom to feel like I dont care and that I am not grateful that she is with us still and overcoming everything. But this is still my day, having four kids I dont ever get to have the attention on me and its been like that since I was 19 and had my son! I feel like this is my one day! But I really think the dress does not go with anything and it actually going to look silly……….AHADHSFHSFHHHAAAAAHAHAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Part of me wants this whole thing over and behind me so I can just be normal again…..but the bride thats lost in there amongst all this drama wants to enjoy this whole experience 🙁 I am so lost!