- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
Ugh, my fingernails are a damn disgrace.
I was a picker for most of my life — that is, someone who picks at the skin around their nails, all the time, until they are all bloodied and disgusting and terrible. Last year before the wedding, I decided I really needed to quit doing this, and I SUCCEEDED (!!!) with a little help from drugstore acrylic nails. Wearing the fake nails both covered up my cuticles so I couldn’t pick them, and made it really weird and uncomfortable to pick anywhere else because the nails are rounded at the ends. I have been putting on a new set of acrylic nails every week for over a year.
Then, recently, I decided to see what happens if I don’t wear them. Have I broken the habit after not picking my fingers for a year? Can I be trusted to not do it anymore??? I sort of want to get away from the acrylics before the baby is born, both because they’re longer than I’d like my nails to be with a baby and because they can be hard to keep clean as it is — much worse when you’re changing poo-diapers :-/ Plus I can just imagine it being my luck to lose a nail right in a turdy diaper or something.
So I took the nails off, and I’m having some troubles. 1) my nails are bruised to hell. This is a natural part of wearing acrylics — between putting them on and squeezing my nails really hard and then taking them off at the end of the week, I get bruises under my nails. They don’t hurt or anything but they’re ugly. So any polish I wear has to be thick/dark enough to cover up the bruises.
2) The polish doesn’t stay on for shit. It all chips all the time, which it of course never did when I painted the faker nails. Very frustrating.
3) My cuticles are no longer covered and protected by the fake nails, which is both annoying and worrisome to me. I have been really good about not messing with them, but it’s tempting.
4) I can’t stand it when my nails grow enough to see even the tiniest fragment of bare nail between the polish and the cuticle. I’m a little bit OCD about this.
So, Bees who are manicure experts — any advice? Since I’m so nutso about not seeing bare nail at the bottom, I know if I were to get real manicures done I’d have to go AT LEAST every other week. Which could get expensive if I’m needing to get fancy shellac or gel or whatever to keep the polish from chipping so much.
HELP MEEEEE!!! I really just need to deal with all this until the bruised portions of nail grow out completely, but unfortunately that could take months. 🙁