Post # 1
One of my best friends attempted suicide on Wednesday. I typed a post about it about 10 times before realizing I could never truly put the experience into words. Let’s just say it’s been a horrible couple of days and I’ve felt a level of pain that I never knew I was capable of. It’s also been a lot of stress. She doesn’t have family in this state, so it’s been up to our group of friends to take care of a lot of the formalities that deal with her now being in a psychiatric hospital.
Anyway, my SO has been amazing. He’s let me cry to him hysterically for days. Last night, I came home from visiting her and sat on the floor and started bawling. He just sat next to me, put his arm around me and let me cry without trying to fix it. I had told him I wanted to convert the office in his house to a writing room (I’m working on a book) and when I came home, he’d cleaned it out and said it was ready for me to do whatever I wanted to it.
When my grandmother died, he had a really hard time handling my grief. Because of this, I have wondered what he would be like in a future crisis–if he could be my rock in a time of need. Well, over the last few days I have seen that he is more than capable. He is a really good man and I just feel so lucky for his support and love.
I’m really sad about my friend still, but I wanted to point out something good. Sometimes a crisis has a way of making us see all the good in our lives.
Post # 3
First, I want to give you a virtual hug. Suicide, even attempted, is one of the most difficult things to deal with. My brother has attempted on multiple occasions, and I truly don’t think I could have gotten through it without my fiance. I am so glad you have someone to support you and be there for you. I really hope your friend finds peace in her life and realizes how much she will be missed if she were to be successful in her suicide attempts. I pray the same thing everyday for my brother. Its just a terrible situation for those who love them.
Post # 4
@MrsSnowPoke: Thank you. It means a lot to have someone understand. It’s not something I can articulate. She almost died and it scares me to think what will happen if she attempts again. It also just kills me to imagine the kind of pain she must be in to want to end her life. Thank you for your kind thoughts… I hope that your brother finds joy and peace as well.
Post # 5
I am very sorry about your friend. Please know that her illness is likely screwed up brain chemistry and you will be able to help her by encouraging her to stay on her meds and in therapy.
I know what you mean about men wanting to “fix” things. But, it really is a watershed moment when you realize your man is made of pretty strong stuff and will be there for you.
As a fellow author, I congratulate you on getting your well deserved writing room. I’m sure it will help with your motivation.