Post # 1
So, I had HOPED to get down to 145 by my wedding day. Now, in my head, I thought this was a reasonable, acheivable goal. And, in reality, I probably could have done it. However, it didn’t happen. Let’s digress a bit…
In 2004 I was 225 lbs, in a size 16 ish. Mind you, I’m 5’5′ (if I stretch…). I felt icky…One day, I bent over and there was this…thing….where my stomach should be…this flap like creature that had latched onto my waist…. I just was heavy (Sorry about the photo size!):
I was sick of feeling sick and overweight, so I started South Beach. I eventually lost 75 lbs over the course of 2 years. THEN, I moved to Ohio. I ended up in a horrible abusive relationship that didn’t end for 9 months and it took me back up in weight. The stress and the fact that I was alone without friends or family for months after the relationship ended. Finally, about a year later I met my Fiance. I was back down to about 175 when I met him. THEN the comfy relationship stage hit, and I got back into the 190s. I had another reality check after looking at vacation photos and started working out again. Fast forward to the engagement and I was down to 165lbs. Soooo…naturally I wanted to lose more weight and get under 150.
Well, folks, it didn’t happen. Today I sit here at about 157ish…maybe 155 if I weigh in the morning. Sure, I’m still a little self conscious about my looks. Sure, I could have stopped the stress eating and worked out more. BUT I did manage to find a workout I am truly passionate about. I am still LESS than I weighed when I met my man. I fit into my dress and wear a solid size 10 (sometimes an 8!). Frankly, I don’t care that I’m not 145. I’m not going to starve, I’m not going to flip out and overexercise. I think I FINALLY found balance in my life with this wedding weight dilemma.
I think I’ll take a BALANCED approach to life over weight loss any day.
Me today (actually our engagement photos – my “bad ass” pose, but about the same weight +1 or 2 #s)
What are your stories?
Post # 3
you look stunning! and this post made me happy
Post # 4
I think you look awesome! Congrats on all the weight loss! 🙂
Post # 7
I don’t have much to add to this except to say that you are freakin’ gorgeous!!
Post # 8
You look gorgeous in that last photo!! I’ve been struggling with my weight the last three years, going all over the scale and only wearing maxi-dresses for so long that I forgot what it was like to wear jeans. Like you, I got myself out of an abusive relationship and then met my Darling Husband. We had a child together (at the time, marriage was not something I thought I wanted, although a stable, committed relationship was) and I gained almost a hundred pounds over the course of the pregnancy and the following two years. I’d been underweight all of my life, so it’s felt a bit like wearing a new body, and not an entirely negative one! I love having a butt!
But (ha) trying on wedding dresses brought out every insecurity I thought I’d put behind me. I got down to around your current weight for my wedding and felt beautiful… but then I went bonkers. Let’s just I’ve never met a cupcake or bread pudding that wasn’t down for a ménage à trois. I have an anxiety disorder (PTSD), and maybe the stress of the wedding was a bit much, because after it was over I stopped caring about being healthy and ate. A lot. My weight shot back up, of course. Now, I’m being kinder to myself, although I eat the same things (darn you bread pudding), I just don’t eat three at one time. So, I wouldn’t say I’m happy with my shape right now~ hello, flap creature~ but… I am happy with my attitude and what I’ve overcome.
Isn’t the solid relationship so wonderful?! Congrats on finding your inner badass.
Post # 10
You look amazing! Go YOU!
Post # 11
@jjmomma: I hear ya! I am SOOO eating bread pudding at the rehearsal dinner! That, and I TOTALLY relate to the dress search body consciousness. My mom even went as far as saying she couldn’t picture the dress fitting while it was on me…so could the skinny salon person (size 0 bridal) try it on for me?…I thought I was going to die. Congrats on finding your good man and for finding a great attitude!!!!
Thanks everybody! I also had my firsth biometric health screening today and found out my fat percantage is lower that 30%! AND I have ideal cholesteral, blood pressure, glucose and I’m not too far off on BMI! Woohoo!