Post # 1
I need to get this out. After 13 cycles, 1 MC, 1 CP, 2 failed clomid cycles and finding out the Darling Husband is going to be out of town when I O this month has caused me to lose my mind.
Oh… and I have the flu and AF at the same time (shoot me know please) so that is not helping matters.
- I want to cry everytime I see pregnant women
- I hold my breath everytime I open the POAS thread to prepare for another bee gettng a BFP ( I am happy for every single women that gets a BFP… I swear.. I just wish it were me).
- DH’s sister just had her baby that she got pregnant with after taking ectasy with her boyfriend… I have not been able to go over to the see the baby yet
- I feel like I let my husband down every. single. month.
- I POAS yesterday even though AF was here ( a girl can hope right).
- I havent been to a baby shower in 6 mths… I can’t handle it. I’m working on that… that is not fair to my friends.
- I wanted to slap my sister when i told her (after way too much wine on Christmas day) that i had to have medicine to ovulate, and her response was, “I wish I had that problem! You are lucky girl!” (she has 2 kids and had 4 abortions and is only 24).
- DS said santa brought him everything for Christman but a baby brother, I cry every time i think about that.
- i get anxiety everytime i think about my first wedding anniversary because I always pictured us pregnant or with our baby already.
- I havent been to church in months because i am so so angry at God for not blessing us with a baby yet these dysfunctional girls pop up my fb newsfeed EVERYDAY with an ultrasound picture.
Thank you ladies… I needed to get that out. I will be fine, we will be fine… It will happen for us.
Thanks for listening!
Post # 3
@MrsStrawberry24: while I haven’t gone through what you have I justo wanted to say I am so sorry. God gives his toughest battles to his strongest warriors just remember that (:
Post # 4
@figgnewton: I truely believe that… it is just so hard. I feel like i have prayed and prayed for this and nothing.
I am determined to stay encouraged and I know He will bless us when He is ready.
Post # 6
I have no experience with this but wanted to tell you that I’m sending you good vibes. Don’t give up, where there is hope there is life!
Post # 7
It’s OK to feel all of this things, especially after the struggles you have been through. I guess my only advice here would be to focus on you and not your fertile sister or anyone else. Try not to let the comments or acts of others bring you down – I know that’s hard! And we are all here for you…and crossing our fingers that this long journey is almost over for you!!
Post # 8
@MrsStrawberry24: I am so sorry you are going through this, and I can definitly relate 🙁
I am on cycle 9 of TTC and I feel like I have let so many people down by not being able to get a BFP sooner. I know 6 people who are having babies this year. One delivered two days ago and THREE had doctors appt’s yesterday to do blood work. I try to stay positive and I am genuinly happy for them, but it still hurts.
Just because our prayers aren’t answered when we want them to be, doesn’t mean he isnt listening. I will put you in my prayers and pray that we can keep our sanity through this process.
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger?? I sure hope so….:)
Post # 9
I don’t have much to say except that I’m sorry you are going through this and I hope you get your BFP positive soon! Try and stay positive, and it doesn’t make you a bad person for feeling the way you do. It only makes you human. Hugs.
Post # 10
Well, that obviously sucks. I have a suggestion though, since your husband will be away this cycle anyway: Give yourself a month off. No POAS, maybe a break from FB, no TWW. Pick something else that you’ve been wanting to do — a long weekend trip, a spa day, a movie marathon, whatever — and give yourself a treat/distraction and try to clear your head.
Post # 11
@MrsStrawberry24: I am so sorry for the way you are feeling. Though I haven’t been trying nearly as long as you I can understand your frustrations.. I will never understand how unfit people can get pregnant so easily yet those that want one can’t. I work with babies and see it every single day.. I will be praying for some peace during this emotional time for you, just know that God does have a plan for you and put the desires to be a mother in your heart for a reason and you WILL be a mother some day.
My husband is out of town this month too during my fertile time.. I was told to “get pregnant” within 6 month of my surgery by my doctors and this is month 4 so with that and I feel like my best months are sliping away through my fingers. And I am on AF with antibiotics too because I am sick. Mean right?!?! You can vent to me anytime you need. I am taking a POAS board break the next couple months..
Post # 12
@mrs.stormylove: Thank you so much. I am sorry for all of us that is going through this. I just have to keep reminding myself that it will happen for all of us soon. I hate when we are put on deadlines on when to get pregnant. I hope it happens for you sooner than later. Sinced both of our DH’s our out of town this month I guess we better find something else to help time pass right lol!
@ElbieKay: Thank you for you suggestion! That is my plan. I just purchased my first DSLR camera and I am throwing myself in to photography and classes and our son. He is 7 and just started basketball but has become so independent in the last few months that I feel like i’m not needed by him anymore. I guess i will have to start smothering him again 🙂
You ladies are amazing thank you so much! I know there are people that are going through way more than we are at this time. I also know i need to be thankful for amazing husband, beautiful son and my awesome friends and family and stop letting this one thing take over my life and happiness.
Thank you everyone for encouraging me and listening!! You dont even know how much it helped me just get that out!
Post # 14
@MrsStrawberry24: Iam soooo sorry you are feeling down. It is hard when you see babies and pregnant woman out there and wish that were you. I’ve been there and i still am….IDK what to tell you to cheer you up, .. sorry:(((( .. big ((((((HUGS))))) coming to you!!!
Post # 15
I know exactly how you feel! I’m going through the exact same thing. Everyday in my news feed, or at my job, I see another seemingly undeserving girl announcing her pregnancy, whereas I feel as if I’m doing all the right things but to no fruition. However, I stop myself from thinking that; what God has for them is for them and what God has for me is for me. You just have to trust in His will: It’s hard, it’s scary, it’s not fair, but its not in your hands. My mother used to tell me “Just lay all your burdens at the cross”.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”- Romans 8:28 NIV
“We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope.”
-Martin Luther King, Jr.