- 6 years ago
- Wedding: August 2012
So early this morning I remembered I had to upload some more music files into the shared dropbox with our DJ, and listening to our ceremony music again (One Hand, One Heart from West Side Story, to be played while we sign the license) brought tears to my eyes like it always does… so at first it was happy tears.
Then, for some reason that I don’t know, I decided to check Facebook. I had one message from my ex-bridesmaid and now ex-friend telling me that I had unrealistic expectations of our friendship that she couldn’t live up to, nor did she want to. This is in response to me finally getting it off my chest a few days ago that I was hurt she never responded to our wedding invite. She was originally going to be in the bridal party, and then backed out, by text, hurling a few cruel criticsms my way as she did it. I triecd to get over it and still be her friend, and sent an invite anyway, back in May. She never responded. I was hurt. I was letting her know. Now she’s throwing it back in my face that I’m taking it too personally, she was just preoccupied. WTF?!
Second message was from my ex, saying he needs me to transfer more money his way, to pay for the mortgage. (yes, I still own a house with my ex. Real estate market it slow and it hasn’t sold. BIGGEST regret of my life, buying a house with him). In the last two months, on top of all the wedding bills, I had to activate a new line of credit and send $4K to pay for upgrades to the house and bills. No idea when I’m going to see that back. thank god we’re on good terms, him and I, but still- stressful!!
Then my Fiance calls and says her brother had trouble at his dialysis this morning (they just arrived from Ontario and he has multiple disabilities, so him being here at all is a big deal). So they are taking him in again tomorrow, but the only slot available is 5pm. We have a reservation for 30 people at a restaurant for our rehearsal dinner at 5:30. So something’s going to have to be juggled around.
I don’t know how much more I can take! i’ve been so excited for the wedding, and I still am, but enough already. I just want it to be over and on my honeymoon at this point. 🙁