- 7 years ago
- Wedding: April 2012
I just went off the pill in preparation for TTC in a few months after Fiance and I are married. FI and I had agreed that we would avoid pregnancy for at least 6 months, as he is still looking for full time work. I have started charting to make sure things are working properly in hopes that I will be ready when the time comes.
Unfortunately I planned it all out in my head and forgot to explain everything in detail to him. This is in part because I’m very eager to have a baby soon and I know Fiance isn’t quite ready, and I didn’t want to scare him. I told him a few weeks ago that I was going to go off the pill, and that we could use condoms for protection until we are ready.
Well, I would have started a new pack of pills on Friday and in all the holiday rush of travelling and stress I guess I forgot to tell him. Last night we had sex without protection, as usual, then immediately after I realized my mistake. I explained everything to him right away and apologized. He was very understanding and mature about it, which was a relief. I plan to be much more careful in the future and use condoms until my cycle normalizes.
I know that there is only a very small chance that I would ovulate in one day after going off the pill so I’m not too worried…but on the other hand, I would be so excited if I got pregnant. I feel so conflicted about this situation. I certainly don’t want Fiance to ever had a reason to resent me or think that I tricked him. I’m just so terrified that I might have trouble getting pregnant that it seems stupid to keep taking the pill. Has anyone else ever felt this way?