- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2016 - Blue Hound Farm
This is really long, sorry.
I’m so lost and discouraged in regards to my future career. I went on an interview for an internship on Tues and found out that I didn’t get it this morning. It seemed really interesting (much more interesting than much of what I’m currently studying), but I’m not even sure that it would have been that valuable to me long term anyway. Plus, it was a 45 min commute with tolls from where I live, didn’t include free parking unless I lucked out and found a space 6-8 blocks away, and only paid $10/hr.
A little bit about me. I’m turning 31 in a couple months. I got my BA in psychology back in 2011, and after graduating, found that I was unable to find a job making more than $15/hr, so I kept nannying, which I had done all through school because the money was much better. In a way, I wish I had never started nannying, because that whole time, I gained no real job experience (at least as far as employers are concerned) and I was making such good money, it was hard to walk away. But I have to walk away, because while the money is good, I have no benefits and was primarily paid under the table, so don’t show any income (meaning getting a loan of any kind to buy a house, car etc. is impossible). So beyond time to get a real job.
So this past summer, I decided to go back to school and entered a masters program for applied information technology. No real idea what I want to do in this field, but I know that (supposedly), there’s a huge demand and the pay is good. But now, I’m hearing that I should get an internship in order to eventually get an entry level job. It’s a hard pill to swallow to make not much more than a high school dropout at the age of 30 a semester + a month away from a master’s degree.
I’ve been going to school full time this semester, living on a loan from my mom to pay my share of the bills and supplimenting with a few hours of nanny work a week. After this semester is complete, I’ll need 15 more credits to graduate. My original plan was to take a part time internship this summer, keep working part time nannying (because there’s no chance Ill be able to make ends meet with what these internships are paying) and take a class so that ill only have 12 credits to complete in the fall. But paying my bills is going to be a huge struggle, even with part time nannying, because I wont have loan money from my mom (that was just for this semester), and I won’t have a lot of time to devote to nannying. Since getting rejected from the shit-paying internship, now im thinking maybe I’ll take two classes over the summer (leaving 9 credits for the fall), work extra hours nannying (likely that I’ll be able to easily cover my bills) and then focus the extra time I ll have (bc classes end about a month prior to the start of the fall semester) to look for either an internship or a job for the fall.
The whole point of going to school is to find a good paying full time job, so if at any point, that were to come along, I would take that over going to school. And honestly, I have very little interest in any of this. I know I have to work, because we need to money, but really, I’m way more interested in my upcoming engagement and wedding, and in a perfect world, I’d be a stay at home wife(or mom).
I don’t at all mind working hard for something tangible, I just don’t want to devote any more energy to something that I dont know will pay off. If someone said to me, do A B C D and E, even if that took a lot of work, I would have no problem doing it, if I knew 100% I would be easily employable at the end. I thought having a master’s degree was the equivalent of that, but now I’m really starting to doubt that it is.
Does anyone else have experience with any of this stuff? Do I need to be worrying about getting an internship, or should I just focus on finding an entry level position?
Btw, I live in the suburbs of Md, about 45 mins from Baltimore. I know job markets vary depending on locale, so I thought i should mention that. Please help!!